Hi guys. I hate to do this here, but I know I have to do it somewhere. The events of today have really taken a toll on me. They have "opened my eyes" so to speak. To be completely honest, I am afraid of the beast I know I am. I don't want to hurt you guys. I don't want to keep messing up and proving what I know deep down to be true. No one has ever said it verbally that I can remember, but I know when I look into the eyes of some I know, that I am just a heartless monster. Whether my therapist agrees that I am a high-functioning sociopath or not, I don't care. I know that I am not normal like some think. The things I know I'm capable of but hold myself back from doing, scare me sometimes. I don't know what to do. You guys are great, but I don't know if I deserve to be in the group if I know I will eventually bring harm to one or all of you.