theres nothing i wont understand
i wanna leave this shithole, i hate el paso, vernal is so much better, dad please quit your job and take the one that makes us move to vernal, please i hate it here
also im just letting yall know now. when/if my family eventually moves to vernal, im abandoning most/all my social medias and starting out fresh. im also probably cutting ties with irl friends. and no, im not gonna tell yall what the new accounts are, if i make a new medibang. the only accounts i'll be keeping are toyhouse and youtube, but they're going to be cleared out a ton and im gonna restart?? on those two some.
i might give in and tell my dad im fine with us moving to vernyl before i graduate. i kinda want to leave texas behind and cut off all of my relationships and restart ...idk. maybe ive been listening to Two Birds for too long.
ill be the white cat with the black outfit :O
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Cool lol
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> trickster EEEEE :D
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> trickster ooooooooooooooooooh thankss
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> Carter🎃👻 YES :D
tw/ suicide
they're
they're telling me to kill myself
im\
iim not supposed to be making thhhis
theyre mad, they tolld me to hurt my classmates and are tellign me to kill myself soon
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> trickster Think of something else, Try to get a song stuck in your head or something
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> HeadHonchoCodex bbut howw do i not listen to thhem theyre in my head
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> trickster That doesn't change the fact that you shouldn't listen to them. Whatever they're saying, it's wrong and you need to tell someone who can help you before it gets worse
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> HeadHonchoCodex nno you dont get iit, , thhey were thhe ones that pushed me tto attempt iin the past
just remembered one of the people on medi that i have a crush on likes women
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:000 who ees it?
i forgot i wear glasses
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Pffft, those might help
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uh oh- try drinking water?
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O H You good?
also look who i got >:D
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Blue uwu
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Black/blue idk
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a bit o green
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OooOooO
MY FRIEND ACHILLES GOT US MATCHING RINGS AND ?! HELP BC I THINK I HAVE A SQUISH OR A CRUSH ON HIM AND *sobs* hE CAALLS MW PINE TREE
tw sh ??
wanna get a blade and skin my leg
cody texted me and i sent a bit of an angry text this morning
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Don’t hurt your self like that number one it will make you skin look ugly trust me my leg has a bunch of ugly scars, number two it may hurt a lot :/
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2, C, ~, H
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2, E, ~, H
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damn thats great i have 49 simehow
I loved you as my own
More than my life
I looked at you and I saw my wife
But you don’t fucking care
About me, anymore
I used my energy
To make you laugh
And all you sayin right now-
Is that my love was half-assed
But I don’t fucking care
About you, anymore
I don’t know where you have been
Or who’s love you felt
And honest to God,
I can’t help but melt
But I don’t fucking care
This isn’t fair!
I pretend that I don’t fucking care
Because I’m fucking scared
To open up
To tell the truth
To give my love to anyone after you
Yeah, I’m fucking scared
Because I used to care
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They're actually all worthless. You can't use them in any way except to get other things. How are these things seen as valuable???
details for this drawing
https://medibang.com/picture/eu2111091402444370019940562/
[tools]
-kindle fire
-hands
[app]
-medibang paint
[canvas]
-2000x2000, cropped to 959x1022
-light grey preset background
[brushes]
-symmetry pen [3px]
-pen [3px]
-rough watercolour
-wet watercolour
[layers]
-1 bit layer, 100% [details on blood/dark red]
-1 bit layer, 100% [lineart/dark grey]
-colour layer, 20% [black, shading]
-colour layer, 80% [black, shirt/gloves]
-colour layer 64% [dark red, blood]
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> HeadHonchoCodex ayup :D
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Ayup
so... about my crushes .. lets just say ,, one is secretly a ghost and the other kills fish ... >:] (pls if either of you catch my drift dm me *sobs*
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*chokes on water* jkdlsh
"I don't know what happened.. no, no, that's not right. I don't remember what happened.. no, that's still not it! I can't remember what happened!"
No matter how hard the amnesiac tries, they just can't quite recall what happened..
What happened? something happened? is this why I can't remember, or was there just nothing to remember in the first place?, they wondered to themself.
They don't know- remember- they can't remember who the three people surrounding them are, but they all seem worried for the amnesiac.
Perhaps they were a quartet?
Well, that doesn't really matter right now. All the amnesiac needs to focus on right now is why they're bleeding. That is, once they notice it.
i....
i have a crush on 2 people on here 😳
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😳 🥴 👀 🗿
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:0
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O.O Can't just leave us hangin now can ya
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ooOOooo :o
i dont like talking about my problems because it makes me feel vulnerable, but how am i supposed to keep all these secrets anymore?
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Sorry about that :/ I'm always here if you need someone to talk to, but I might not always respond right away. If it makes you more comfortable to not talk to people about it, maybe try writing it down (if you haven't tried that already)? I know it's not for everyone, so I'm sorry it doesn't work for you. It's something that I usually do and it helps me a little bit ^-^
medi kinda dead ngl
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ikr? is sad ;-;
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yea people just like stuff but don't comment and it confuses me
might make a drawing(s) of all my scars and their origins? ovs with trigger warnings for their origins <3
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sounds interesting, maybe i should do this
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I hope the scars r not to bad
tw/ fire, burning, harm of children
when my brother and i were kids
he would burn me for fun.
it started when he was 3-4 and i was 1 or so was the first time. my mom told me that on a 4th of july, she caught him holding a lit sparkler against my face.
the second time we were camping. he was maybe 7 or 8 and i was 4 or 5, and he hit me a couple times with a stick from the campfire.
i dont fully remember the other times, but over the years hes done it a few times again. once he almost lit my hair on fire. another time my mom stopped him before he shoved the entirety of me into a campfire.
he still actively threatens me with matches and lighters, and has almost done it.
and he wonders why im scared of fire and refuse to get less than 4 feet close to it.
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> Oat_salad I wonder the same thing-
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That must be traumatic, why I’d your brother so mean?!?!
> Dinosaurbean yeah ,,
Wow that must be hard, I’ve never moved anywhere so I don’t really have any restarts
> Dinosaurbean ive changed myself so many times. ive moved a lot. i can do it just fine.
But what if you never change? It’s hard to change an entire person just in 1 quick move