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Do you ever hear a singer or a voice actor or something and think " if (insert oc's name) could talk, they'd sound like this"?
If so then tell me who and what oc, I'd love to hear them!
It's been happening to me.
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Im not excited for school today
Possible tw?
I had a nightmare last night abt where I was in a worse home than I am currently
And if my grades weren't 85+ I'd be beat and abused :[
It really spoiled the day for me. Im sadder than usual.
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Im not excited for school today
Possible tw?
I had a nightmare last night abt where I was in a worse home than I am currently
And if my grades weren't 85+ I'd be beat and abused :[
It really spoiled the day for me. Im sadder than usual.
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めだちゃ！
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めだちゃ！
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Melody is Back Woooo
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Boxing obi
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its like a funny loona introduction
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You ever have this random wave of sadness and doubt rush over causing you to not only question everything you’ve done recently (like, ‘am I annoying this person’), but you always feel extremely empty inside and very blah and sad? How do I get rid of it?? Is this normal??? Should I be concerned cuz this happens almost every week, sometimes much more than once.
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You ever hear your parents talking and you think it’s about you and your like “oh crap what did I do” so then you become a huge ball of anxiety and can’t breathe and are going through everything you own and every account ever in case they someone found them???? Yeah me too :’)
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You ever have this random wave of sadness and doubt rush over causing you to not only question everything you’ve done recently (like, ‘am I annoying this person’), but you always feel extremely empty inside and very blah and sad? How do I get rid of it?? Is this normal??? Should I be concerned cuz this happens almost every week, sometimes much more than once.
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You ever have this random wave of sadness and doubt rush over causing you to not only question everything you’ve done recently (like, ‘am I annoying this person’), but you always feel extremely empty inside and very blah and sad? How do I get rid of it?? Is this normal??? Should I be concerned cuz this happens almost every week, sometimes much more than once.
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You ever have this random wave of sadness and doubt rush over causing you to not only question everything you’ve done recently (like, ‘am I annoying this person’), but you always feel extremely empty inside and very blah and sad? How do I get rid of it?? Is this normal??? Should I be concerned cuz this happens almost every week, sometimes much more than once.
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You ever have this random wave of sadness and doubt rush over causing you to not only question everything you’ve done recently (like, ‘am I annoying this person’), but you always feel extremely empty inside and very blah and sad? How do I get rid of it?? Is this normal??? Should I be concerned cuz this happens almost every week, sometimes much more than once.
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Okay, so, writing things down and talking about shit is apparently a better 'coping mechanism' than taking a smoke (in the innerworld) or yelling into a mirror or breaking shit.
Trigger warnings? for like ...I don't know, wars and abuse, death and manipulation, I guess.
I know I'm a bad person. I accept that I am a bad person. I have no issues with being a bad person. It's actually kind of fun to have complete control over people and see that others fear me.
The thing I don't like is that I've hurt Tommy. He's like a little brother to me. I've hurt him beyond repair and I regret ever manipulating him and physically and emotionally abusing him. And I accept that there's no changing that, no matter how hard I wish to be able to be his older brother again.
But something that gets me so fucking frustrated is the people who defend him and don't even think about what I was and am going through. They only think about him.
Yeah, he's been through two wars. He's watched his nation explode. He's been manipulated. He's been abused.
Guess what? So have I.
And yet, no one ever thinks about the other people affected by the same things he was hurt by. Never. They only ever see me as the villain. I mean, I AM the villain, but do you ever think about what happened to me?
I've gone through so much traumatizing shit too, and I have my triggers as well. But NO ONE EVER ASKS WHY I BROKE. THEY ONLY THINK OF ME AS THE GUY THAT WENT INSANE.
Do you have any clue how much it hurts to feel your sanity get torn away from you, piece by piece? A lot.
I just get so pissed when people ignore and write off my own issues and dismiss me, but then go and baby the person who's gone through similar shit.
Yeah. Tommy is fatherless, watched his nation blow up, was abused, manipulated, died and ressurected.
Me?
I had a father who purposefully abandoned me. I struggled (and still do)* with a drug addiction. I built a nation to get out of my depression and out of my addiction. I watched someone I regarded as a brother betray me. My wife passed away. I raised a son in an active warzone. I fought the same wars as Tommy. My nation was ripped from me and handed to a man I used to consider a friend. I was driven to insanity. I died. I spent THIRTEEN YEARS IN THE VOID, WAITING FOR SOMEONE TO COME AND SAVE ME FROM IT. FOR THIRTEEN YEARS I STOOD AT THAT BUS STATION, HOPING SOMEONE, ANYONE WOULD COME AND FUCKING SAVE ME.
And yet everyone dismisses my trauma.
*All mentions of my drug abuse have taken place in my source material and in the innerworld. No narcotics have entered the host's body.
