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Illustrations has been published.

"You will be okay"

  • Sorry if none of this makes any sense. It's late and I'm tired.

  • And yesterday, I saw a moth on our front door. Mom and Grandma always told me that Grandpa liked moths so whenever I see a moth, I say it's Grandpa visiting us.

  • You know that lullaby that Stolas sings to Octavia in episode 2 of "Helluva Boss"? I was just listening to it again and it reminded me of my grandpa who passed when I was a baby and I started crying. Not because I was sad, but rather because I was happy that I found something else that reminded me of him. I had trouble figuring out what I wanted to draw as a memory of him but I figured that I always still feel the presence of my departed loved ones when I look up at the stars at night so I drew Stardust looking at the stars. And when Stolas said "I'll never be far away from my special little starfire", it reminded me of some of Grandpa's last words: "I'll miss that pretty little face". I didn't really notice how many things in that episode reminded me of Grandpa but after listening to that song again, it made all those little memories of him come back. This isn't a vent. It's just something I drew that has a special meaning behind it to me.

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Grandma's mental capacity has REALLY gone down lately. She just called me a few minutes before 6:00 a.m. under the impression that I'm hospitalized. I tried to tell her that I'm healthy and that I've been home this whole time but she kept going on and on about if I was still working with doctors and when my next appointment was and that I had a bunch of tests done. None of that ever happened! She's lost it! She's delusional! Bonkers! Cuckoo! Crazy! Kooky! Mad! Insane! Whatever you want to call it! I hate how she's so delusional that she thinks that I'm terminally ill and hospitalized! And somehow, she knew that I got my period again, which hasn't happened since I was 12 and I never told her about it. (I know. Too much information.) Then she called my uncle saying that I had black stool and hemorrhaging. How it go from a menstrual period to hemorrhaging?! I hate how all of this crap has been screwing with her brain! It's been ABSOLUTE HELL! If Hell were the same as how they depicted it in Hazbin Hotel, I'd rather be there than here. I'd rather be at the hotel with Charlie, Vaggie, Angel Dust, Alastor, Husker and Nifty than I would be here putting up with nonsense phone calls from my delusional grandma! I haven't gotten ANY sleep yet and it's almost 7:00 in the morning! I just want all of this to be over so we can go back to normal. First, it was lymphoma, now it's her mental capacity being almost non-existent. I love her to death but I hate how I just can't seem to get the truth through to her. It's driving me crazy! All the nonsensical rambling, the delusions, the lies she's been telling my family, all of it is driving me insane! I'm sorry. For the most part, I'm doing good. I just needed to vent. I was going to post some more vent art but artblock can be a jerk sometimes. Okay. I'm done ranting now. Sorry if I worried you. I just needed to do something to get this off my mind.

(Vent) Can't we go back to normal?!

Grandma's mental capacity has REALLY gone down lately. She just called me a few minutes before 6:00 a.m. under the impression that I'm hospitalized. I tried to tell her that I'm healthy and that I've been home this whole time but she kept going on and on about if I was still working with doctors and when my next appointment was and that I had a bunch of tests done. None of that ever happened! She's lost it! She's delusional! Bonkers! Cuckoo! Crazy! Kooky! Mad! Insane! Whatever you want to call it! I hate how she's so delusional that she thinks that I'm terminally ill and hospitalized! And somehow, she knew that I got my period again, which hasn't happened since I was 12 and I never told her about it. (I know. Too much information.) Then she called my uncle saying that I had black stool and hemorrhaging. How it go from a menstrual period to hemorrhaging?! I hate how all of this crap has been screwing with her brain! It's been ABSOLUTE HELL! If Hell were the same as how they depicted it in Hazbin Hotel, I'd rather be there than here. I'd rather be at the hotel with Charlie, Vaggie, Angel Dust, Alastor, Husker and Nifty than I would be here putting up with nonsense phone calls from my delusional grandma! I haven't gotten ANY sleep yet and it's almost 7:00 in the morning! I just want all of this to be over so we can go back to normal. First, it was lymphoma, now it's her mental capacity being almost non-existent. I love her to death but I hate how I just can't seem to get the truth through to her. It's driving me crazy! All the nonsensical rambling, the delusions, the lies she's been telling my family, all of it is driving me insane! I'm sorry. For the most part, I'm doing good. I just needed to vent. I was going to post some more vent art but artblock can be a jerk sometimes. Okay. I'm done ranting now. Sorry if I worried you. I just needed to do something to get this off my mind.

  • I think I said that Grandma's in the hospital, right? Whatever drugs she must be on, they're f-ing with her brain and I'm starting to wonder if she should be in a mental hospital instead of a normal hospital at this point.

✨Some pastel edits I made✨

I made a few pastel DU edits. One of them is of Angel (My Guestsona) and the other is of Jack Sparrow. I really like pastel colors because they help me relax and cute things cheer me up so I made these. And I wanted to show one of my OCs in my profile picture so the pastel edit I made of Angel is my new profile picture. Honestly, drawing my OCs helps with my mental health a lot, especially all my sonas (Cupcake, Sparkles, Stardust, Nebula, Angel, etc.), which I think is why they mean so much to me. And I try to find positive things about myself and use them as traits for my sonas. Cupcake, Sparkles, Heart Of Gold and Angel are all meant to show my kind, caring nature, Nebula and Merry Twinkletoes are meant to show my smart, creative side as well as being reminders for me that it's okay to be different, Stardust is meant to show the side of me that allows me to dream as big as I do and Garnet (my most recent fursona) is meant to show that I love everyone I care about, regardless of their differences, which is something she strongly believes in. And I don't intend for this to come across as bragging. I try to use affirmations as often as I can to help me feel better about myself and all of my sonas are based on positive things people have said about me as well as the affirmations I use. Since the situation I'm in isn't a pleasant one, self-love is something I'm trying to work on more. That's one thing that's helped me make it this far.

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  • Noice edits fam!