Mayhaps I’m done caring
1年前
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What am I REALLY uploading here for? If it was for the views or the favourites wouldn’t I go more with the trends?
I’m often scared of drawing. Is it because I know I won’t be able to draw something well? My mental state is something I always have to keep in mind and these kind of NOT fun feelings, don’t help.
This is what I started my day with. I just thought to myself that I should let loose and stop holding myself back.
“Embrace the pain” I say to myself and anyone who’s reading must be confused at that and that’s fine, that’s okay. Here I’m experimenting more with how I present myself, trying to make jokes, write in an interesting way. I’m different here than I’m irl, but that doesn’t mean that the way I am there is the REAL me. There I’m mostly just shackled by everything, here not so much. I don’t know the real me yet so, who knows, maybe I’ll find him here trough the process of experimenting, trough feeling pain and hardship, trough trying to create something beautiful. Maybe