Oh yeah- mostly just about being more worried / busy i think- cause it’s just been bugging me.
And I suppose that makes sense but on the same coin everyone does have their limits and that’s okay, I’m not just gonna assume you’re chill and it’s not a disappointment if you can’t.
thaat being said , it’s mostly just about school lately. |:T I even actually confronted my parent about it because my other parent expected me to be done with it in a week to celebrate graduation. It’s weird cause it would be caring (to be concerned about graduation) I suppose but they just don’t pay attention to how much I’m succeeding/struggling and expect me to hit milestones without actually even seeing if that’s a reasonable goal. (there’s no way on earth I could finish everything in a week) And seeing as their the ones in charge of school it’s just messed up in like, several ways. I mean I do like 100% ap classes that I can’t choose to do the normal version of, and I didn’t know that till I was in third year I think, like actually pretty recent. And I’ve never gotten praise for any good grades or way more importantly, any attention when I really obviously need help with trash. I get it’s not necessarily sustainable to be involved when I have other siblings who probably matter more in that sense, but I could at least be given the stuff I need to actually do stuff- I don’t even have a counselor that fell through like crazy and I’ve just gotta deal with what my brain be like I guess.. which is directly detrimental to doing anything in school. There were never even any holidays over the year but I was still expected to go to family events and just like do more work in a day to make it up I guess? it’s stupid… and I didn’t even realize anything was stupid for so long like- I just thought this was on me idek
Honestly I’m not sure I’ll even get the proper papers from doing this if they can’t process it meaning like the straight a’s dont even matter
And I have reason to believe that they won’t for a while cause they can’t even seem to get enough paperwork to file for a state ID for me hrghh
I just have to trust that the website they went through for most of this stuff does that pretty automatically yknow
I am unsure what I want to do as a job so having proof of a good gpa might be super important and frankly it would just suck to have all that mean nothing anyways
But they won’t even grade the papers??? Some things need to be written and then graded by parents instead of the computer so. Yeah I spoke with my parent earlier about it I just don’t know if it will mean anything because they’re very good at pretending they care until they like don’t actually change anything or laugh at me so I don’t know if them saying that I’m right means anything will change actually
I m pretty sure I typed a lot oh jeez
but yeah it’s just been making other aspects more stressful
not to mention I like have trouble breathing or being dizzy lately?
It’s not in a serious way (I just feel like shortness of breath? Not like not being able to breathe, and sometimes I wonder if it’s just like being tense) but it makes me worry more cause like I don’t know I’m just the bystander here tbh
But yeah om I’ve probably spent too long typing ngl
It’s not like an always consuming problem it’s just been a pain
Also all the hateful laws and seeing that everywhere, what the w my guy im tired of the us
Idrk that probably sounds like a lot but imagine it with a done with these bois tone I’m not stressed at the moment just sleepy
and I don’t want it to get in the way of you saying things if you’re upset you hear =_= psa psa I always appreciate mbois even if mbois are sad bois