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i hate venting online, and venting in general, but this is the only exception
so if you dont wanna like, read sad stuff or smth, or rants idk just click off okay
i dont want another person telling me that this triggers them, it hurts ME more than it hurts you by saying those words.
i hate everything lately
im so sensitive as well
just got home from an interaction with a friend of mine (which happens to be my semi-crush?? idk) and like, while walking home ive realized that, either deliberately or not, she still hurts me emotionally
i get it, they like to tease and joke around, but, hugging me and then slightly pushing me afterwards saying "if there wasnt a gate i wouldve done that hahaha" triggered me so much
its like she loves to see me even slightly hurt
idc if theyre just joking, idc if she doesnt have bad intentions, i do not care, she still hurts me, and i have to accept that fact
but i also fucking hate -you-
yeah
you, the person who leaves me hanging on that one social site, says "sorry" after what? a day of pure nothingness? i fucking see you talking with your friends on other sites, do you fucking hate me or something? bc i can do the same to you if i really wanted to, i know im not good at talking, neither are you, but i try my hardest to be someone you even slightly like
you, who maybe knows who the last person i talked abt is and who will tell them abt this right afterwards, i dont -hate- you, but i strongly dislike you for telling others what i posted, maybe i post this shit on here bc theyre not even online on here anymore
you, who keeps talking about themselves, the games they play, how they feel, their problems, but when i slightly hint that i am not okay, you just turn a blind eye, when i say "stop" you continue, i fucking CRIED because of YOU
you, who also surprise surprise leaves me on fucking read, i dont even know why i looked up to you back in the day, you are shit at talking, you piss me off
you, who instead of helping me, you joke around, you are literally so fucking annoying, i dont even know how i put up with your bullshit everyday, you exhaust me with your "why?" questions, leave me the fuck alone, you really think everything is about you huh? how SELFISH do you have to be to think about yourself THIS FUCKING MUCH?
i hate you for bonding with your other friends, am i not good enough? do you hate me? did i do something wrong? im not saying you cant have friends, but when youre only with them and never with me, it hurts.
you know how much i dislike your best friend, yet you talk abt them, you know how jealous i get, but you keep talking abt them and your AdVeNtUrEs.
i fucking hate this
and i hate being here
so if you dont wanna like, read sad stuff or smth, or rants idk just click off okay
i dont want another person telling me that this triggers them, it hurts ME more than it hurts you by saying those words.
i hate everything lately
im so sensitive as well
just got home from an interaction with a friend of mine (which happens to be my semi-crush?? idk) and like, while walking home ive realized that, either deliberately or not, she still hurts me emotionally
i get it, they like to tease and joke around, but, hugging me and then slightly pushing me afterwards saying "if there wasnt a gate i wouldve done that hahaha" triggered me so much
its like she loves to see me even slightly hurt
idc if theyre just joking, idc if she doesnt have bad intentions, i do not care, she still hurts me, and i have to accept that fact
but i also fucking hate -you-
yeah
you, the person who leaves me hanging on that one social site, says "sorry" after what? a day of pure nothingness? i fucking see you talking with your friends on other sites, do you fucking hate me or something? bc i can do the same to you if i really wanted to, i know im not good at talking, neither are you, but i try my hardest to be someone you even slightly like
you, who maybe knows who the last person i talked abt is and who will tell them abt this right afterwards, i dont -hate- you, but i strongly dislike you for telling others what i posted, maybe i post this shit on here bc theyre not even online on here anymore
you, who keeps talking about themselves, the games they play, how they feel, their problems, but when i slightly hint that i am not okay, you just turn a blind eye, when i say "stop" you continue, i fucking CRIED because of YOU
you, who also surprise surprise leaves me on fucking read, i dont even know why i looked up to you back in the day, you are shit at talking, you piss me off
you, who instead of helping me, you joke around, you are literally so fucking annoying, i dont even know how i put up with your bullshit everyday, you exhaust me with your "why?" questions, leave me the fuck alone, you really think everything is about you huh? how SELFISH do you have to be to think about yourself THIS FUCKING MUCH?
i hate you for bonding with your other friends, am i not good enough? do you hate me? did i do something wrong? im not saying you cant have friends, but when youre only with them and never with me, it hurts.
you know how much i dislike your best friend, yet you talk abt them, you know how jealous i get, but you keep talking abt them and your AdVeNtUrEs.
i fucking hate this
and i hate being here
