I am through
I am done
I just want to disappear from this solar system
I am done with people ignoring me
I am done with my IRL "friends" not talking to me
I am done with my online friends leaving me on read
Jesus Christ I have friends to not be lonely in the pit I live in
BUT NO the more friends I make the lonelier I get
I am not fan of this website, I do not like socializing here
There a lot of great people here but I just don't want to go through something that happened again
But guess what? This is the only place where I can talk about my feelings even tho no one is gonna see this
I am grateful for the 3 people that constantly talk to me
Tho I don't want to bother them so much they get annoyed with me especially since I am the one who starts conversations
The fact I am stressed out when talking to people because I AM NOT SUPOSSED TO TALK ONLINE
But I do it because my IRL friends just said go f yourself
(I must clarify that Skye doesn't have means to talk to me but whenever she can she talks to me)
I am two seconds away from just cutting everyone off and going back to my unhealthy ways of dealing with my loneliness

Anyway don't bother with this

And 1.18 is looking fine 👀