this be a vent I wrote you don't have to read it I swear a lot sorry ;-; also there might be some triggering stuff such as concern about weight, and me ranting about one of my friends. This was from a while ago tho
But We haven't really resolved anything we just ignore it
Ok here
fucking fear
tearing me apart
the fuck is wrong with me
i am so sick and fucking tired of this shit
but i still hope no one sees this
see, this fear
you have no fucking idea how afraid i am
i never thought something inanimate could be so painful
when someone walks by, i can’t let them catch me writing this
i’m supposed to be doing homework right now but i fucking can’t
my attention span got beat up by the three dysphorias and left in a garbage can
i’ve been thinking-
why don’t i feel the need to watch my weight and shit-
figured it out- it’s cause i honestly don’t care
i mean, i do, but i don’t
i’m gonna probably cry or shit and get all bitchy when the doctor tells me to diet,
but i mean,
we’re all gonna die anyways,
and i might go quicker than most, so
who knows.
back to the subject though
it feels so unhealthy to hide so much-
maybe i don’t wanna tell people stuff because the reactions i know i’ll get
i mean, we all know i’m fucked up
what’s the point in actually stating it
people are astonished when i wear a fucking dress-
don’t want them knowing they’re contributing to my body dysphoria when they gasp
i’m sarcastic only because when i tell the truth, they’ll think i’m joking
and it works, usually
but i guess i don’t really tell the truth
not after what she did
gone and told her mom to call my mom because she thought my mom hated her
i don’t really got a problem with why she called, i mean it’s a stupid-ass thing to think, but
i’m more upset over the fact that she completely betrayed my trust- i asked her not to tell anyone
she was like, of course not, tell me fucking more
and then after the night me and my mom had the talk about it
i cried, by the way- fucking fear murdered me that night
she had the nerve to come up to me and tell me, my mom called your mom, as if i didn’t FUCKING KNOW ALREADY
I FUCKING BROKE DOWN
AND LATER SHE DENIED EVEN TELLING HER MOM TO CALL MINE
SHE FUCKING SAID THAT NEVER HAPPENED I DIDN’T DO THAT
WHAT THE FUCK
i didn’t tell her i broke down- i told her i knew, obviously, but i couldn’t tell her anything else- just cause
she’s so damn sensitive
if i say anything she doesn’t like, i’m done
she better not see this-
she better not fucking see this
shit, if she sees this- if anyone sees this
i’m fucking dead
i can ask her to dig my grave
it can say, here lies the fucker who couldn’t decide if they were a prick or a bitch
no one better see this
no fucking one better see this
my god, this is just another thing to add to the list of things that i don’t want my parents to see
oh damn this is actually pretty long-
shit
-11/7/21
Okay sorry
Imma go to bed now gnnnnn ill reply to stuff tmrw if there's anything ig
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> ゼロチューバー qwq
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> Tigermoth | Art Hiatus Eh?! Same broo
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> ゼロチューバー Ye technology can be annoying sometimes lol
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> Tigermoth | Art Hiatus I can relate tho I don't have a PC my sis does wish I had one tho
it atuomatically turned it to a youtube short------- oh well
https://youtu.be/ccQAHMutpbA
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> Rosefur1 Ty! Yeah idk if it like autodetects the length + the camera angle or something but who knows oh well
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It looks cute! And I’ve been hearing of a lot of problems with the shorts thing
Of my fren's boi :p
Very high quality content right here
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> Tigermoth | Art Hiatus Ohhh
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> ゼロチューバー Yea you first have to render it into a gif image tho and medi crashes it sometimes
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> Tigermoth | Art Hiatus I didn't know you can put an animation on here
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> ゼロチューバー Medi dislikes making people happy-- but actually I think it's just a bug with medi it sometimes glitches gifs and animations ;-;
https://youtu.be/wGWIEwiPsKo
but the friccin audio doesnt feel like wokring even tho i tested it like 50 times :)
ITS FINEEEE
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> Tigermoth | Art Hiatus Np
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> ゼロチューバー Thank! ^^
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Passing by while watching animation memes trying not to die, I see your animation and I say it looks rather impressive!, I'm not sighed in at the moment but when I sigh in I'm definitely going to sub and like!!
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> Rosefur1 qwq tysmm
>:O tysm this is v cool first 20 likes >:D
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> Tigermoth | Art Hiatus npp :DD
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> sweetea 💌 thxxxx //^//^//
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> Tigermoth | Art Hiatus ofc you deserve it >:)
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> sweetea 💌 Tyy ^^
medi, you're struggling. Bro.
Every time I click ' see more' on a drawing, if sends me to the drawing next to it- I just hope they figured out the notifications at least :/
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> 🐾 𝕠𝕝𝕝𝕚𝕖 🐾 Ikrrrr ;v;
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i hate glitches ;w;
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> Tigermoth | Art Hiatus Lol yes.
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> ゼロチューバー q-q we can all suffer together
last topic goodnight if you know what manga this is from I will be very thankful qwq i read it but my mind has gone blank-----
umm how do u deal with copyright music?? Like some animators have like dat lil music license at the bottom of their desc can you like copy& paste that or do you like have to email the song artist and ask permission or shiz
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> pbart Oke! Ty ^^ yea imma do like animations to like well known songs so YouTube don't mill me please ;-;
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Oh, there's YouTube music library that gives you copyright free music to use for your videos! Also, if you want to use some other sound track of your own, just write in the description is caps that the sound track doesn't belong to you and give name and credits to the original owner and song! I have done this previously!
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> ROTTiNGKiTTYFLESH ! 🥛 Ohh omg that saves so much time lol oke thx qwq i was surfing Google trying to figure it out the whole day xD
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I'm pretty sure YouTube auto generates it :]
I haven't posted anything yet but I will in doing a Crane's Rage meme soon so maybe sub hehe https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCrh3H-HnM1UoJ2FFlGkHxzg/featured
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> ゼロチューバー :D
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Ok
to make a youtube banner that looks actually okay, like what're the dimensions qwq mine looks like crud rn :")
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> Tigermoth | Art Hiatus I'll make a YouTube channel sometime in the future coz rn I'm way to lazyyy but I dunno
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> ゼロチューバー Lol that's too bad but also kind of me---- I had another one but I stopped posting on it rn I just have one for animations lel
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> CherryArtsOwO Oke ty!
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I had a YouTube channel once but I deleted it because I'm to lazy to make vids or edits,...
♩♬ why am I posting so many topics, I don't know ♩ ♫
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4:05 for me... I don't feel sleepy but I don't feel hype either... I just want to watch my cat's untill I go to sleep
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♩♬ Tiz also 2 a.m for me ♩ ♫
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> 🐾 𝕠𝕝𝕝𝕚𝕖 🐾 qwq
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its 8:40 PM for me .w.
they said it would rain
It did
They said for five minutes or would rain
It did
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bit* xD
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it rained a little big for me too- and now that i think about it, im pretty sure it wouldve been around 5 mins-
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> Dinosaurbean Yasss
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Ayee we are rain twins, it literally just started raining as soon as I read this topic lmaooo
there's like a lot of stuff I wanna do for myself, so imma nooot be taking anymore requests lol otherwise u can ignore this just a list of what I wanna do because it's night and I donwanna write anything down rn
-finish coloring book pages
-draw tigermoth ref
-finish everything Bobbie
-six fanarts
-other drawing memes
-Wattpad story
-get ohuhus
-interview
-website for newspaper
-why is this my irl to do list now
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> Muna Sketches Yuuuup i mean they mIGHT've said yes if I asked, but when I fiiiiiiiiirst made it ~so very long ago~ (like 2 years or sommin) I posted something and then like a week later realized 'oh shi this is probably considered social media---- *internal brain alarm goes off*' so I didnt tell anyone. ;-; Then like a 3/4 of a year later I redid my whole account and just like committed to living in anxiety and started posting a bunches lol -storytime w/ tigermoth, and also 'how to live in anxiety and make your own problems 101' I say at 12pm under my covers typing on a secret account :,,,,)
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> Tigermoth | Art Hiatus i have youtube, art street, and pinterest but thats all. Parents dont like anything else XD
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> Tigermoth | Art Hiatus ThIS acCouNT iS a SEcrEt?? wat XD
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> Muna Sketches Ooh pintrest :0 i was thinking about making a Twitter account for the sole purpose of showing my literal art/everything idol some fanart buuut i wouldn't have permission lol and there's already enough stress keeping THIS account secret *laughs but crieS*
...eeeeeeshhhhh ok so I maybe accidentally possibly signed myself up for too much stuff so if I said I'd do something (request etc.) if it's not in the list below imma not do ittttt (lel i probs forgot bout a lot of things but oop) //pleeease read tysm//
-Muna's contest & Muna's request
-Warrow oc (Ollie's species)
-Contest prizes when contest is over
-Adopts batch and more info and ref for Daemonium species
-Request & Custom for Huntifluf
If you thunk I missed something, pls comment qwq i'll repost this cuz I know peeps' timezones are different and yea
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> Muna Sketches qwq
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> Tigermoth | Art Hiatus =,33333
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> Muna Sketches Lol suffering together :,)
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I did EXACTLY what you did! XD 5 or somethin requests and ollie's creatures and stuff i want to finish o-o
I think my sleep schedule is a lil better with winter break :D
Instead of staying up until 1 and then having to wake up at 6:50 for school, I can sleep in til 10 :)
i be doin an illegal kekeke im gonna draw I don't care if the doc told me to keep the cast on it feels the same as it did a month ago :/
SOOO imma do the requests I was gonna do---
I know I had one from Muna , but comment if u had one because I forget them all qwq sorryyyyy
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> ☆HuntiFluf☆ Yeah sure!
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> Muna Sketches Lol oke! and I know im such a rebel hehehe >:)
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I can wait a while for my drawing <3 I kinda just want some inspo for my character cause i dont know how to draw her honestly xD
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bAD bOI- and take your time with the drawings cause of your arm or hand or whatever got hurt o-o
I wanna show u the reaaallly smol animation i made for my frien
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> Musty_Amaya | ohh oke thanks!
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For example the files name will be something like (file name).GIF or something like that
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You have to make the animation into a GIF file, then you can turn it into a topic
my 🎵🎶 notifications aren't working again🎵🎶
alsoooooo maybe read my wattpad story if u wanna like idk check it ou tmaybe i mean like you dont hAVE to or anything but like if you want to i mean like yeah so like um if you wanna yeah here it is hehe https://www.wattpad.com/story/301208277-care-to-fight
this is kinda a vent sorry I don't really like venting here but like there's no one else- idk I don't really have an excuse but here itt tis
tw // no good stuff
yeah so there's this guy at school he and his twin brother have asked out like all the girls at school (its a really small school tho) and right now he's almost 15, and he's been going after two of my friends, one who just turned 12. First, he kissed one of my friends, and then she just brushed it under the rug because we all have social anxiety here and then he asked out my other friend after a bunch of creepy emails and weird questions, and when he got turned down KINDLY he got really depressed?? AND WE CAN'T TELL IF HE'S BEING SERIOUS--- I'm really nervous he's actually gonna hurt himself but he's been a fucking creep from the first day of school, and he stares really creepily at my friends and I ffeel like its all for attention, but maybe not??? It's fucking hard to tell and i don't wanna deal with this shit right now and now its break and he's emailing my friends and asking to call and asking about if they like anyone at school etc., and fuck this shit I wanna punch someone
I feel so fucking bad for my friends too, especially one who felt really bad when she turned him down even though she was relaly nice about it and he's being a fucking perv
anyways i really apologize bout all this shiet i just wanted to write it somehwere where someone maybe would see it--- i don't know
sorry
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> ueenIdiot thanks qwq yeah my friend was gonna tell them thursday but then one of the teachers wasnt there and I think she was really nervous about it, but we're gonna try ty
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Start gathering evidence and tell a teacher ok? He might have not done anything yet but if he’s making you and your friends uncomfortable then you shouldn’t have to put up with him. If you don’t feel like it’s the right time to tell yet then please at least get evidence just in case. Also don’t let your friends give in because of pity ok?
but I still can't take my splint off for a while- although the doc said to take it off on the 29th of feb, of which does not exist this year--- i can tell how much they care :D
of Vainglorious the web comic yussss
source of happiness other than webcomics but WeBCoMiCs aRe mY LiFe
This was after I was depressed because none of my favorite webtoons updated which i was looking forward to after a crap day :,D
:T
Idk it ain't the best day for me but I hope y'all have a fun one :D
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> Muna qwq oh mannn
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> Tigermoth It is not a coincidence 030
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> Muna *gasps* makin the coNnEcTioNS :O
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> Tigermoth Passion and proud both have the letter P, like PROCRASTINATION!
Yeah let me know if u wanna draw these dudes doin whatever just vibing sry I got no color palettes or nothin but yeah the one that says Toby is actually Alastair sry it’s confusing but if u wanna be fEaTuREd in my tWO ViEwS wattpad story then u can draw em and use the tag CareToFight please thanks idk if anyone’s gonna do this :l
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> Dinosaurbean amen ;v;
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> Tigermoth Rip moms plant XD
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> Dinosaurbean why is that true tho- except this time i was transplanting sommin for my mom and it looks pretty dead already ngl :/ ah well maybe there's hope
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> Tigermoth Man whenever my plants get big enough to go into a big pot they always die after the move :( My foot long plants would rather live in a pot that can barley fit a quarter in it then live in a gallon pot
i have a story on wattpad now :0
https://www.wattpad.com/story/301208277-care-to-fight
it's the one that was gonna be a comic but then----- yeah anyways *coughs in lazy*
I'mma post some pics of character designs and if you guys wanna draw them, I'll use them as banners for my chapters?? idk if people wanna do that but like-- I'd give credit & link at the beginning of the cahpter to the artists so if u wanna do that i'll post that in a bit
yeah thats it
I have to do a family tree in spanish mind you i'm really bad at it, a fake campaign poster and platform for a us democracy class, a math project that took me 30+ min to do 1 problem (we need to do 12) and write a screenplay I gotta finish in a week :) I also am writing a story that I wanna finish soon, I can't find my stylus that came w/ my computer, and there's a fricc ton of drama at school that involves a more-than-mildly creepy 15 year old boy and like all the 12 year old girls
thIS is FiNE
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> Dinosaurbean Yeah I think he will, we're gonna talk to the head of school soon so >:T
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> Tigermoth Well hopefully he gets what he deserves >:D
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> Dinosaurbean yeah we're kinda just email trolling him right now ngl because he's talking to aNOTHER one of my friends now :T
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> Tigermoth Oof I hope things get taken care of
im gonna go to bed soon but ill see ur messages hehe
http://secretwhisper.app/tigermo2d
tell me stuff- confess- tell me more stuff- >:D
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> Dinosaurbean Yea just knowing someone is in the same boat as me is nice ^^ ty, and the Shreve isn't wierd lol it makes sense
> Tigermoth | Am Busy I’m glad I could help a little ♡ just remember that we are different people, and we were in different situations, so what I did may not be the best decision for you, I hope that if you leave your friend that you can leave easily, and I’m sure things will get better for you! :D (Honestly that sentence was rlly weird, idk how to get to the point without making it sound weird XD)
> Dinosaurbean Thamk you-- im glad all clear on your side too I might have to do that we'll see.. Thank u for this though it helped me a lot ^^
> Tigermoth | Am Busy Everything on my side has cleared up, I stopped talking to the girl that betrayed my trust, and I stopped talking to her friends, which it hurt me a leaving that friend group because I was friends with half the group but, I realized that they didn’t really care when they denied being there, and helping the girl who wronged me I’m honestly glad I left, yea I did hurt a lot and it was hard getting into a new friend group, but staying in that friend group would have caused me to much stress for my 7 yr brain Anyway, I hope you know what’s best for you and I hope you choose what is best for you <3