y do I have to upset everybody? y do I take every mistake to heart? y can’t I js not make mistakes?
will kms next year better make this the best year of my life
can’t even stay in a relationship without upsetting ppl. Way to go Ted. Ur so fucking amazing.
I’m srry mom.
I’m srry for being lazy.
I’m srry for being unmotivated.
I’m srry for being annoying.
I’m srry for being rude.
I’m srry for getting on ur nerves.
I’m srry for being a disappointment.
I’m srry for being a bully.
and I’m srry for existing.
I hope u can forgive me and I’ll make it up to u next Mother’s Day
I kinda dislike my lazy ass rn.
mb next Mother’s Day I’ll js kms, tht’ll make her happy.
..I hate being nice
I’m a brat.
y is it tht whenever I friend some1 I become so fucking clingy and get so jealous when they hand out or even seem to have a better relationship w some1 than they do w me. ig I js can’t handle some1 else leaving me alone, not again. oh god pls pls PLS not again. I rlly can’t handle being left out, only used/talked to when bored or left alone again. ykw yea thts probably it he probably only talks to my lame ass bc he’s js bored. no one ever hangs out w me and enjoys it, no one hangs out w me and isn’t js bored. but I crave tht interaction, tht attention, tht care, tht friendship. I crave it sm, I js wanna be ok. I js want a real friend. some1 I can rely on. some1 ik will nvr leave me, replace me or only talk to me when they’re bored. pls i js want a friend. I’m a worthless little manipulative loser who can’t go a day without interaction, either it be online or irl. I’m a fucking piece of shit. a stress toy, a therapist, an extra little backup plan. nothing more. nothing less. I’m not a valuable or important part of anyone’s life, I wish I was. I wish I was some1 who no one could ever forget, I wish I was some1 who was able to leave a positive effect on others. Instead of js sitting here. in my room. writing this js bc I’m a clingy little nobody who doesn’t hve good friends. I wish ppl cared abt my wellbeing. my physical and mental wellbeing. but no, my friends in elementary told me, “ur being too negative.” “stop being so fucking depressed.” “u always body shame urself.” I feel like they nvr asked if I was ok or if I was happy or if I was comfortable or if I was doing better or if I was clean or if I wasn’t feeling left out or if I wasn’t having suicidal thoughts again. they nvr did, in elementary u needed to be tall or skinny or had a pixie cut or pretty or in a specific class to be popular. I didn’t have one of those qualities. not one. I was fat. I was ..too tall. I wasn’t pretty and I didn’t have a pixie cut. I’ll nvr be liked or popular. bc I’m not attractive enough, I’m not skinny enough, I’m not happy enough.
I’m not selfless enough. I’m a selfish little bastard. I only care abt myself and I’ll nvr be able to help other if I continue to be the way I am. if I continue living in this disgusting body. if I keep being ugly. if I keep being bad at smth as simple as art. if I js don’t give up.
…I’m not strong, I’ll nvr get through this. I wanna give up.
“Someone loves you!”
..wht a lie
it’s hard to believe some1 when genuinely love me. Last time some1 did I wasn’t able to talk to them anymore. They’re on my wallpaper and I sometimes stare at it. Almost crying, knowing tht no one will ever love me or understand like they did. Even if they were a little rude. I miss them. I miss my gf sm.
we went swimming 2day…again. I thought it was gonna be fun but tht was ruined when my sister put my head underwater and I was “overdramatizing”and it wasn’t tht big of deal. My other sister told me tht she thought I drowned and she said so…bluntly and in a tone where i knew she doesn’t give a fuck abt my wellbeing. My entire family doesn’t and it’s so obvious.
One moment they’re all comforting me bc they found at im cutting myself.
Next they’re yelling at me specifically and making me feel like shit.
And they wonder y I’m the way I am,
and I can’t change tht.
tw//sh
I relapsed last night and I hve these rubber bands on my wrist tht i always wear and the rubber bands r literally scooting to my cuts and they BURN like lmfao
why does no one fucking care
ofc it’s me.
it’s always fucking me.
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> zombii idk how to without dying of nervousness
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> ˚₊ · ͟͟͞͞➳❥ well u need it
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> zombii it’s scary tho
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> ˚₊ · ͟͟͞͞➳❥ u can atleast try!
Thts it. I’m probably gonna relapse.
IM DONE. IM SO DONE. IM DONE W THIS FAMILY. IM DONE W FAVORITISM.
I HATE IT HERE. I HATE THIS SHITTY HOUSE. I HATE THIS SHITTY FAMILY. I FUCKING HATE IT. MY GRANDMA IS MAD RELIGIOUS, MY MOM IS ANOTHER VERBALLY ABUSIVE PIECE OF SHIT, MY DAD PROBABLY DOESNT GIVE A SHIT AND MY SIBLINGS LOVE TO TREAT ME LIKE IM SOME HUMAN PUNCHING BAG.
ITS NOT FAIR, NOT FAIR, NOT FUCKING FAIR.
MY MOM CAN STFU W THT “oh I’m overprotective of my kids, blah blah blah” SHIT BC SHES NOT. SHES HURTING ME AND HELPING MY SIBLINGS MAKE ME CRY AND FEEL LIKE IM A WORTHLESS LITTLE SHIT WHO CANT EVEN PROTECT HER OWN LITTLE SISTER. I WANT TO, I WANT TO PROTECT HER BUT IDK WHT TO DO WHEN SHE COMES TO ME AND SAYS SHES “GETTING BULLIED” WHEN SHES JS MAD BC SOMEONE DOESNT WANNA BE FRIENDS W HER ANYMORE.
IM A PIECE OF SHIT. I HOPE ONE DAY MY FAMILY WILL UNDERSTAND THE EFFECT THEIR WORDS SMD ACTIONS HVE ON ME.
WHY AM I ALWAYS ALWAYS GETTING YELLED AT AND THEY ARENT?? IK WHY BC TEDDY IS A STUPID BITCH THTS WHY AND JS BC IM THE SECOND OLDEST “IK BETTER” BITCH STFU. WE ALL LIVE UNDER THE SAME HOUSEHOLD, UNDER THE SAME RULES WE ALL AUTOMATICALLY KNOW BETTER STUPID. AGE DOESNT MATTER WHEN IT COMES TO WHT WE KNOW AND WHT WE DONT. AGE DOESNT MATTER WHEN IT COMES TO FAVORITISM. BUT NO ONE UNDERSTANDS THT. NO ONE.
IM SO ANNOYING AND ILL NVR NOT BE ANNOYING. I WANT THIS TO ALL STOP.
I WANT MY FAMILY TO BE NICER TO ME I RLLY DO. I WISH JS FOR ONE, ONE DAY I WASNT INSULTED, YELLED AT OR ABUSED BY MY OWN SIBLINGS. BUT THT DAY WILL NVR COME. NVR.
IM TIRED.
I rlly am.
I hate tht ppl follow this acc. tht wasn’t wht it was made for, it was supposed to used for venting without annoying ppl and making them feel pressured to comfort me. But bc of ppl following me on this acc ppl r gonna comfort me and tell me all this good shit to try and make me feel better abt myself. Thts nvr gonna work. I’ve nvr felt like a good person or like someone tht deserves love and support. The only time I did was js for a joke. Take a joke ppl. I’m such a rude ass mf. I can’t handle criticism. I can’t handle ppl genuinely loving me, which will probably nvr fucking happen. I’m such an attention seeker. I hate every single thing abt my dumbass.
..wish I could fall asleep and nvr wake up. No one would probably care or notice anyway.
I hate spotify. I wanna leave behind everything tht i hve on there. But I can’t, I’m too nice of a person and I have friends tht i told tht I would nvr leave. Every single time I go back online on there smth bad happens which causes me be negative and depressed, like me feeling guilty abt being so inactive on there. Leaving behind all my friends js bc of the things tht happen whenever I’m active on there.
Pfft your nothing but pathetic teddy. A manipulative whore. A selfish manipulative whore. Ppl hve it worse than u and ur over here said and guilty js bc u left behind all ur friends for a couple of months.
Ur a piece of shit Teddy. Burn in hell.
I’m a manipulative piece of shit aren’t i?
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> zombii ty I’m always here for u as well<3
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> zombii thxs jadiee rlly appreciate ur comfort c’: ilyt bsff <33
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im aleays here for u besyie<3
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no ure not at all bit sometines we domt mean to do that i think ur petfect the way u arew<3 ildsym! amd plese domt thibk bad about urself! yoir liyerally the besy person ever<3
why am I such an ass
STOP STOP STOP STOP UR ALWAYS LYING STOP STOP STOP IT PLS
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I HAVE NO FUCKING PRIVACY AND I CANT HAVE ANYTHING TO MYSELF. IM SICK AND TIRED OF BEING A DISAPPOINTMENT, GIVING MYSELF UP FOR OTHERS, BEING YELLED AT AND BEING LIED TO. I WISH IT WOULD STOP. PLEASE MAKE IT STOP, IM BEGGING YOU PLEASE MAKE IT STOP
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IM SO DONE. SHES ALWAYS LYING AND NOW SHES TRYING TO GASLIGHT ME. I FUCKING HATE THIS FAMILY. IK ITS JS AN OBJECT BUT IM SO TIRED OF EVERYONE LYING TO ME AND NO ONE DEFENDING ME
I feel like a phase js smth ppl like then get over, I’m not important, whenever someone favorites me they get over me
venting. 님이 like 하셨습니다!
일러스트
MAPLE!
OMFG
I HATE THIS BITCH I HATE THIS BITCH
BC OF HER I HATE MYSELF EVEN MORE THAN I DID B4
IM PRETTY SURE SHE BODY SHAMES ME IN FRONT OF ME AND MY PARENTS
SHES NOTHING MORE THAN A RUDE, GASLIGHTING, STUPID, BITCHY PIECE OF SHIT
SHE PLAYS FUCKING FAVORITES AND SINCE IM NOT HER FAVORITE IM THE BITCH, IM THE ONE WHO DESERVES INSULTS AND ABUSE. ITS NOT FAIR ITS NOT FAIR ITS NOT FAIR ITS NOT FUCKING FAIR IN THE SLIGHTEST. SHES THE FAVORITE CHILD AND FAVORITE SIBLING???? DIDNT SHE THROW A BRUSH AT ME??? DIDNT SHE THROW COLD ASS WATER ON ME WHEN I WAS ALREADY COLD??? DIDNT SHE STAB MY FUCKING MOUTH W A PENCIL?????
THIS BITCH IS A COMPLETE PYSCHO.
SHE THINKS ITS OK TO HIT AND INSULT UR FRIENDS BC THEYRE UR FRIENDS
SHE ALWAYS WANTS ME TO GET YELLED AT, IM PRETTY SURE SHE KNOWS THT IM NOT IN THE STATE FOR THT. IM ALREADY TO THE POINT WHERE I WILL START CRYING AT SCHOOL WHILE VENTING TO MY FRIEND WHICH I WASNT EVEN ALOUD TO DO ABT HOW ALL MY SHIT FRIENDS R ALWAYS EXCLUDING ME BC IM QUIET OR SOME SHIT.
I HATE EVERYTHING ABT MY FAMILY, ALL MY FRIENDS EXCEPT ONE AND MY SHIT SIBLINGS.
AND PPL WONDER ABT ONE OF THE MAIN REASONS WHY I JS WANNA DIE.
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if y’all comment I’ll respond w my main
I’m not gonna verify my acc on here bc I don’t wanna spend years trying to make a new acc on mail soo I won’t be responding to comments or posting artwork
Get ready to be annoyed 24/7
can’t wait 2 die next year