So instead of drawing something for Inktober today, I decided to write a poem because why not
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For all you sj peeps, this is not an angry vent poem and has nothing to do with anything, so please don't worry ^^;
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Am I cock or a chicken?
My thoughts are my sickness
The coffin within, I
Can’t stop, I’m conflicted
Did I pick this? Is this an affliction?
A second-rate hateful depiction?
Set fire to my own building
Do I have the right to be one of those children?
Heart of gold gilded, Hidey-hole filled in
Gone is the mold, and I’m the one that killed it
The question of depression arises
Whites of my eyes, then pressed until blinded
Present of mine is a pastime, I am
Living in the gift of reflection reminders
I wipe my brow, my eye lashes out
Exit signs flashing, I’m passing out
In reckless fashion, I’m wrecking my passion,
I recognize ten-year old I in the masses
He’s back and he presents a deal
Be grateful, or hate how tense I feel
If I can sense it’s real, I can escape the pain
I can send a plea, let someone save my brain
But if it’s fake, it’ll be a big mistake
Any goodness in me, it will dissipate
And will I save? It’s not a piece of cake
I’m not wise enough for the risk I’d take
I’d be the cocky victim
Wouldn’t stop my illness
Make my heartbeat quicken
But a mirage I’m living
Perfectly fine behind facades I’m giving
Paint on the crying eyes right on my visage
And if I say today that I’m okay
And explain my pain as “Hey, come what may”
If the demons play, not heeding, “Stay away”
And feed on my denial, then I’ll see my grave
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I’m a chicken
I am my only witness
I’m a chicken
I am my only witness
I’m a chicken
I am my only witness
I’m a chicken
I am my only witness
Everybody wants to show their feelings
But am I feeling what I feel I’m feeling?
The consequences will send me reeling
But am I feeling what I feel I’m feeling?
It’s going to be ok, fwiend........just hang in there......
That is not true! Your best is always good enough, you just have to try! And have that extra hope, and determination!💓
That is not true
None of these are true >:0 We love you!! >:0