I was really stupid. I couldn't put together how hurt you guys were because of my poetry. My plan was this: If I could vent about the whole situation, but be vague enough so that none of my new friends would know what was talking about, then that was a way for me to let off steam without hurting anybody. Turns out, that didn't work because you guys found me. And when you commented, I had to tell people the history so they weren't confused. I'm really sorry that it turned out this way. You might not believe me, even if you read through my poems and instead of seeing the hatred, trying to see the pain and my broken soul, and that fact that I really can't relax and it kills me. I just want some rest. I want a break from the drama, from everything, but not from people. I have to be with people...
Anyway, you probably won't believe me when I say I forgive you, and you're probably thinking that there's nothing you've done that I need to forgive and everything I've done you don't. But I want to settle this peacefully and reasonably. I don't want anymore fighting, because it kills me when I see how much I've done and am doing to you. I don't want to hurt you. I just want people to be happy. That's all I wanted and all I ever will want. And this is how I'm going to try and do that. I'm offering a truce. I am going to stop posting the poems, and you can stop commenting on them so that we don't have to hurt ourselves anymore. You can always go and post behind my back on DA, that's honestly completely fine with me as long as I can get some rest. I really just want to stop hurting you. I don't want to do it and I want to stop doing it, accidentally or not. You can hate me after this, but as long as you're happy and I can relax, I think I'll be satisfied. And you might be thinking I won't stick to this promise, but if I post another poem after this, you have full right to shit on it and me, to make sure I don't do it again. I'll also stop praising Sky here because I know you guys hate it. I'm really sorry, I realize that I messed up unimaginably, and that I deserve what you say to me, but I know that when you say these things, it doesn't hurt me, but you too. And I just want to rest. And sleep. Thank you so much, and I love you all, no matter if you believe me or not.
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Truce by Twenty Øne Piløts
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Now the night is coming to an end
The sun will rise and we will try again
.
Stay alive, stay alive for me
You will die, but now your life is free
Take pride in what is sure to die
.
I will fear the night again
I hope I'm not my only friend
.
Stay alive, stay alive for me
You will die, but now your life is free
Take pride in what is sure to die

I was really stupid. I couldn't put together how hurt you guys were because of my poetry. My plan was this: If I could vent about the whole situation, but be vague enough so that none of my new friends would know what was talking about, then that was a way for me to let off steam without hurting anybody. Turns out, that didn't work because you guys found me. And when you commented, I had to tell people the history so they weren't confused. I'm really sorry that it turned out this way. You might not believe me, even if you read through my poems and instead of seeing the hatred, trying to see the pain and my broken soul, and that fact that I really can't relax and it kills me. I just want some rest. I want a break from the drama, from everything, but not from people. I have to be with people...
Anyway, you probably won't believe me when I say I forgive you, and you're probably thinking that there's nothing you've done that I need to forgive and everything I've done you don't. But I want to settle this peacefully and reasonably. I don't want anymore fighting, because it kills me when I see how much I've done and am doing to you. I don't want to hurt you. I just want people to be happy. That's all I wanted and all I ever will want. And this is how I'm going to try and do that. I'm offering a truce. I am going to stop posting the poems, and you can stop commenting on them so that we don't have to hurt ourselves anymore. You can always go and post behind my back on DA, that's honestly completely fine with me as long as I can get some rest. I really just want to stop hurting you. I don't want to do it and I want to stop doing it, accidentally or not. You can hate me after this, but as long as you're happy and I can relax, I think I'll be satisfied. And you might be thinking I won't stick to this promise, but if I post another poem after this, you have full right to shit on it and me, to make sure I don't do it again. I'll also stop praising Sky here because I know you guys hate it. I'm really sorry, I realize that I messed up unimaginably, and that I deserve what you say to me, but I know that when you say these things, it doesn't hurt me, but you too. And I just want to rest. And sleep. Thank you so much, and I love you all, no matter if you believe me or not.
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Truce by Twenty Øne Piløts
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Now the night is coming to an end
The sun will rise and we will try again
.
Stay alive, stay alive for me
You will die, but now your life is free
Take pride in what is sure to die
.
I will fear the night again
I hope I'm not my only friend
.
Stay alive, stay alive for me
You will die, but now your life is free
Take pride in what is sure to die

I was really stupid. I couldn't put together how hurt you guys were because of my poetry. My plan was this: If I could vent about the whole situation, but be vague enough so that none of my new friends would know what was talking about, then that was a way for me to let off steam without hurting anybody. Turns out, that didn't work because you guys found me. And when you commented, I had to tell people the history so they weren't confused. I'm really sorry that it turned out this way. You might not believe me, even if you read through my poems and instead of seeing the hatred, trying to see the pain and my broken soul, and that fact that I really can't relax and it kills me. I just want some rest. I want a break from the drama, from everything, but not from people. I have to be with people...
Anyway, you probably won't believe me when I say I forgive you, and you're probably thinking that there's nothing you've done that I need to forgive and everything I've done you don't. But I want to settle this peacefully and reasonably. I don't want anymore fighting, because it kills me when I see how much I've done and am doing to you. I don't want to hurt you. I just want people to be happy. That's all I wanted and all I ever will want. And this is how I'm going to try and do that. I'm offering a truce. I am going to stop posting the poems, and you can stop commenting on them so that we don't have to hurt ourselves anymore. You can always go and post behind my back on DA, that's honestly completely fine with me as long as I can get some rest. I really just want to stop hurting you. I don't want to do it and I want to stop doing it, accidentally or not. You can hate me after this, but as long as you're happy and I can relax, I think I'll be satisfied. And you might be thinking I won't stick to this promise, but if I post another poem after this, you have full right to shit on it and me, to make sure I don't do it again. I'll also stop praising Sky here because I know you guys hate it. I'm really sorry, I realize that I messed up unimaginably, and that I deserve what you say to me, but I know that when you say these things, it doesn't hurt me, but you too. And I just want to rest. And sleep. Thank you so much, and I love you all, no matter if you believe me or not.
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Truce by Twenty Øne Piløts
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Now the night is coming to an end
The sun will rise and we will try again
.
Stay alive, stay alive for me
You will die, but now your life is free
Take pride in what is sure to die
.
I will fear the night again
I hope I'm not my only friend
.
Stay alive, stay alive for me
You will die, but now your life is free
Take pride in what is sure to die

I was really stupid. I couldn't put together how hurt you guys were because of my poetry. My plan was this: If I could vent about the whole situation, but be vague enough so that none of my new friends would know what was talking about, then that was a way for me to let off steam without hurting anybody. Turns out, that didn't work because you guys found me. And when you commented, I had to tell people the history so they weren't confused. I'm really sorry that it turned out this way. You might not believe me, even if you read through my poems and instead of seeing the hatred, trying to see the pain and my broken soul, and that fact that I really can't relax and it kills me. I just want some rest. I want a break from the drama, from everything, but not from people. I have to be with people...
Anyway, you probably won't believe me when I say I forgive you, and you're probably thinking that there's nothing you've done that I need to forgive and everything I've done you don't. But I want to settle this peacefully and reasonably. I don't want anymore fighting, because it kills me when I see how much I've done and am doing to you. I don't want to hurt you. I just want people to be happy. That's all I wanted and all I ever will want. And this is how I'm going to try and do that. I'm offering a truce. I am going to stop posting the poems, and you can stop commenting on them so that we don't have to hurt ourselves anymore. You can always go and post behind my back on DA, that's honestly completely fine with me as long as I can get some rest. I really just want to stop hurting you. I don't want to do it and I want to stop doing it, accidentally or not. You can hate me after this, but as long as you're happy and I can relax, I think I'll be satisfied. And you might be thinking I won't stick to this promise, but if I post another poem after this, you have full right to shit on it and me, to make sure I don't do it again. I'll also stop praising Sky here because I know you guys hate it. I'm really sorry, I realize that I messed up unimaginably, and that I deserve what you say to me, but I know that when you say these things, it doesn't hurt me, but you too. And I just want to rest. And sleep. Thank you so much, and I love you all, no matter if you believe me or not.
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Truce by Twenty Øne Piløts
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Now the night is coming to an end
The sun will rise and we will try again
.
Stay alive, stay alive for me
You will die, but now your life is free
Take pride in what is sure to die
.
I will fear the night again
I hope I'm not my only friend
.
Stay alive, stay alive for me
You will die, but now your life is free
Take pride in what is sure to die

Yeah
Throw all the torches on my body, yeah, I felt that a little
Call me selfish, but I know myself, I'm self-sacrificial
Seldom snapping, I'd rather be pacifistic, at the middle
I'm the monkey, and my passion's turning burnt, bitter and brittle
Serving as the firewood, the pyre I'm deserving
Cut away the reputation till my soul stops working
And my pulse reads nothing but repulsive, I earned it
Touch my nerves and then shoot them up, and call it unnerving
I'll kill myself again and time again, and it'll be worth it
As long as you drink my blood to distract you from the hurting
As long as you can benefit I'll emotionally murder
If you're looking for a sacrifice, there's no need to look further.

Is going on a trip until Thursday and I won't be able to talk to her and I'm going to miss her so much

I need you guys' help really bad.
I can't relax. Like, I forgot how to. When I should I just feel guilty for doing nothing and I feel lazy and unproductive. And I feel so bad about myself and the feeling of wasting life at a vital point in my life makes it so that time I was using to relax is now time to stress out about wasting time. I need somebody to help calm me down. This is a habit of mine and it kills me because I never get any rest, even when I have time to because I don't have the ability to relax.

Can get double-crossed but I'm never cross
Reach across the road, I never cross
Or cross my fingers, wear a cross
Scribble crosswords on my arm
Spelling out acrostics cross-eyed but calm

My soulmate sister
Her words are like a cistern
Catching rainwater

Teach me how not to be a leech
You think it's easy, I think it's a reach
Leeches don't have legs to stand up for themselves
They hang onto friends in battle, but don't offer any help
Alone and feeling lonely, I'm a sitting duck
You think that I have talents, all leeches do is suck.

If you break her back
You can't take it back
You'll be saying that
It was a fake attack
You won't save her then
Will you savor that?
You're too late and then
You can't take it back
If she commits
You can't take it back
If she's innocent
You can't take it back
If you don't let her
Make it back
You'll get her letter
Can't take it back

I’ll never be good enough
I’ll never be good enough for you
I’ll never be good enough
I’ll never be good enough for me
I’ll never be good enough
I’ll never be good enough for you
I’ll never be good enough
I’ll never be good enough for me
.

Mistakes happen, I get it
But it’s sad and pathetic
That every step I will take
Is a step backwards instead and
The fact of the matter is that
I will attack my own head
Instead of the pad and the pen
I’m at it again
.
And I am not a perfectionist
I know that perfection is like a reflection in a pond
You can imagine it, you can call, but know it won’t respond
Don’t lean your back on it cause it won’t catch you if you fall
And you can never touch your perfect
Only watch the bubbles
as they bubble upwards to the surface
Struggle with your flaws
.

Cause mine have tied me up in ropes I know I cannot cut
They made them out of all my hope they roasted for their lunch
And I just want to fly and like feel satisfied for once
In my life, feel gratified and ratified and calm
Be laughing but I’m bad at relaxation, time is up
Line em up – all my lines, and then scrutinize and gun
Every one down, because it isn’t good enough
It isn’t perfect, but perfection simply isn’t what I want
What I want is decency but even that is just too much
You say it’s easy, easily I see it with a grudge
.

I’ll never be good enough
I’ll never be good enough for you
I’ll never be good enough
I’ll never be good enough for me
I’ll never be good enough
I’ll never be good enough for you
I’ll never be good enough
I’ll never be good enough for me

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I tried to impress, but I guess what I tried
Got me on the guest list, but I couldn’t get inside
And I sent a message, I didn’t get a reply
Camped outside the entrance in the middle of the night
Treated you a god
And I treated you a prodigy
Tried to be honest
I’m not good enough for honesty
Fishing on for compliments
Cause you weren’t restocking me
Even when you promised me you would, and it’s astonishing
Because I would deposit dollars in your wallet
You were my partner
I took the blood inside my heart and then I built an altar
Got down on my knees and prayed to be like you
I don’t have the health to be myself, every day I prayed harder
.
I’ve given you my all but I got nothing in return
I knew the day was coming I’d run out of fuel to burn
And maybe I should stop it but you know I never learn
And every time you don’t respond I can feel my stomach churn
And now I cannot fathom ever having any pride
Any ashes of my passion, they dried up, withered, and died
Cannot grasp it, now I’m gasping for the light that left my eyes
But I’m not good enough to reach it so my feelings seize my mind
All I want is peace of mind, VIP to get on past
Take that V three letters back, RIP – my epitaph
No pieces of my mind except the one that says I’m bad
The rest are smithereens because they shattered like it’s glass
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I’ll never be good enough
I’ll never be good enough for you
I’ll never be good enough
I’ll never be good enough for me
I’ll never be good enough
I’ll never be good enough for you
I’ll never be good enough
I’ll never be good enough for me

I’ll never be good enough
I’ll never be good enough for you
I’ll never be good enough
I’ll never be good enough for me
I’ll never be good enough
I’ll never be good enough for you
I’ll never be good enough
I’ll never be good enough for me