vent
2 years ago
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where do I begin ?
who even am i ?
im not Austen and I never will be. im not a boy and I never will be.
I should accept the fact im a girl and that I can't change that.
I dont feel myself anymore. I dont even remember who I am at this point. I feel like a stack of cards about to tumble over.
everything hurts. my head. my legs. my hands.
I want to rest, but resting makes me feel guilty.
it make some think of all the horrible things I've done.
I need
I need to gain weight
I dont want to see my ribs
BUT I CANT FUCKINH GAIN ANY
I CANT GAIN ANY WEIGHT WHATSOEVER
NO MATTER HOW MUCHNI EAT
I JUST WANTT YTO LOOK NORMSL
I WANT TISO BE PRETTY AND. HABVE CURVES?!??? US THT TO MUCH TO ASK????? TO NOT LOOK LIKE A FUXKING TWIG??