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I'm not particularly fond of my job. Until very recently I did not like myself in the mirror. I neither got a birthday present nor a Christmas present. I have no real friends. Nevertheless I pulled through, always. Couple of months ago, I have decided to get my life sorted and am currently working on my career. I've started (trail) running, got my head sorted and for the first time I love what reflects back in the mirror. All these wasted years blaming others for my misery I had one thing that always transported me into a realm of pure bliss and happiness: drawing. I see my development and strive for perfection. For me staring at a blank piece of paper is like meditative contemplation, a dialogue between the paper and my creativity. I am literally creating a world out of nothing. I feel like a goddess.