(Vent) Nowhere Is Safe Anymore... LEVEL 3
3 years ago
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I've been worrying about all the dumb things I did when I was younger (between 10 years old to now) and I'm starting to question if I'm still a good person or not because I don't feel like I am. And with how prevalent "cancel culture" is, what if someone close to me hears about something dumb I did in the past and cancels me for it? Because of how nowadays, we always have to be extra careful with what we say or do, I've been living in constant fear and I mean CONSTANT! I've been losing so much sleep lately, I haven't eaten much this week, I've spent all day sleeping and woke up at about 8 p.m., I cried my eyes out yesterday and it actually got so bad that I started feeling suicidal (Don't worry. I reached out to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline and my counselors, Deanna and Justin helped me a lot.) But because I still feel so bad about my past and how I'm so afraid of the future, I still feel like the world would be better off without me in it. I just don't feel safe anymore.