(Vent) I can't let it go...
2年前
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Yesterday was the one-year anniversary of my grandma's death and it still hurts like fucking Hell. I can't stop thinking of all the arguments we got into for no reason, all the times I felt like a failure to her, all the times I made her feel like I hated her when really, I didn't. I failed as a granddaughter and I wish I could go back in time so I could fix everything. I hate myself for it all. I just hate myself in general. I really wish she were still here so I could tell her how sorry I am for being such a bad granddaughter. I was never who she wanted me to be, I was too different, too overly emotional, I was a disappointment. I still am. I still feel like she's gone because of me. I just wish she was still here. I still miss her and the whole thing still fucking hurts and I can't take it anymore!