(Vent) "I'm smiling but I'm not okay!" LEVEL 1
3 years ago
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Just check my most recent topic to see why I posted this. But for further context, the reason why Max is smiling while crying is because I feel like I have to act like I'm okay whenever I'm not. I've been spending so much time alone and that allows me to let my emotions out but I've been having trouble communicating with my family. I've been overly sensitive, I take things too personally and I've been sacrificing my own happiness and sanity to ensure the happiness and sanity of my grandma as well as others around me. I don't have any time to take care of myself, my sleep schedule is wack, I stay up all night crying and sleep the day away, I feel like things will never feel normal again. I can't keep doing this. I just can't. I've been losing my mind! I thought 2021 would be better than the dumpster fire of a year known as 2020 but I now stand corrected.