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3 years ago
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I know nobody's going to read this but my grandma passed away yesterday (in my time zone, it was around 1:53 A.M.) and I'm really feeling worse than ever. I've lost interest in everything again, all I want to do is cry all day until I suffocate and I'm almost on the verge of suicide. I've been grieving my grandpa's death ever since I found out he died when I was a baby and now I'm grieving for both of my grandparents. And my mom and I will have to move out at some point (Mom wants to move to South Carolina only so she can be closer to my brother. At least, that's the only reason that I know of.) And if we DO move out of state, I'm worried I'll never get to see my friends again. I was hoping my grandma would have been around until I was at least 18 or 21 but now that'll never happen. I really don't think I'm strong enough to handle all this pain and I'm really feeling suicidal right now.