First off, I was debating if I should tell you the whole truth or not, not ignoring you. I know I can come off as rude whenever I talk about my feelings, so please just bare with me.


My 'mother' told me that the random ass pain in my lower back could be problems with my kidney, but that's not what I'm upset about.

I... I'm upset because we haven't actually really talked about our feelings, and when you told me I was really happy, but then you told us about your crush of 3 years... Though, should I really be upset about that? You talk about your crushes with me all the time, and each time hurts just the same, but I guess this time was different. I really had hope for us tbh, but I just don't know anymore.


That's it, you can hate me if you want, I'm an insecure asshole, I know, but years of torment brought me to be the person I am right now.

I really do love you, I'm just afraid of getting left alone again.