im
truly sorry for the horrible things i have said and done in the past. im sorry for leaving and not saying goodbye. i had no choice. im very sorry. but all bad things have a little goodness in them. i had time to figure out my identity, who
i was, and improve. i also became very depressed and anxious. im working through my problems like any person should. i never intended to leave, and im sorry for spooking you all. my apologies - zander