I feel cursed... I have no one. Everyone that's close to me is sick or Dead and I am alive and I'm well. Why can't I be the one that's sick? Or Dead? Why does it have to be someone close to me? This is why I have depression and I hate myself, when ever people say they love me I always know they don't. I don't think I'll ever have anyhing or anyone close to me... I'm just bad luck everyone that's close to me dies or gets sick, I had a friend online and a few weeks later he got into a car accident. I had pet he died on the some weak that my other kittens died. I had a friend and he thinks I betrayed him, I'll never ever have anyone... Maybe death really is my only freedom?