Idk how to feel I just don't know what I want to do with my life anymore the future just seems so scary and I'm terrified to grow up even though I have to. It's weird though because I always want to be a cool grown up with an epic job as an author and a beautiful wife/husband to cuddle to sleep with every night, but I'm also scared to be a grown up with a life-draining job and a wife/husband who could break my heart at any second. Literally my stomach hurts thinking about how I could live up to wasting my life and die with an empty soul. Death is something I'm usually not afraid of because I know I will visit heaven, but then again it is completely unknown what could happen to me (or really anyone) when I pass away. I'm just so scared. I love this world too much...and there is so little I can do with a short life like mine. I love all of you, and I hope you know that. Stay kind and be the amazing people you are. All I can do for you guys is keep praying that you are safe and healthy. -Love, DawnTheFox (also known as Sarv)