Sorry for coming back like this. I wanted to vent because I am a miserable person yes, I feel lonely, I feel like I can't fit in easily with other people, I feel like my friends I am like a burden when I am with them or they don't consider me their friend. I feel like I don't even have friends anymore, my only and best friend from childhood started to treat me ugly just because of my looks plus she is low self esteem because she is overweight she has been liking it(? Picking on me for my physique because I am thin and I am afraid to approach her and other friends (? Overweight because I think they will do the same to me. I can't even spend 5 minutes with my friend and others because of that, I can't socialize like someone normal but it's hard for me plus I have no interest in socializing in real life, I only like to make friends online because it's much more comfortable and on the internet you meet people with your same tastes, etc instead in real life no, maybe yes but not with me. I try to socialize on the internet because as I said before, but I can't, I simply can't start a conversation with a stranger with certain tastes similar to mine, I just don't know what I have. For me it is sad to see a group of friends at school because of how they have a good time and talk to each other every day. It is sad because everyone can have a best friend or a simple friend. According to me I had enough but what I consider everyone friends is hard, my childhood friend treats me horribly sometimes, one of my friends treats me ugly just for being less intelligent (? I don't know what I have to do to please others, that I think they feel good around me or by my presence, I don't know what I have to do to fit in with others for some reason is that I like to socialize on the internet than in real life, because I am a fucking introverted bitch or asocial. Yes, I have good friends but I only wish I had a best friend online or in real life I just don't like to feel lonely. These last few weeks I don't know which group of friends to hang out with at recess but I guess I already found another group of friends that I've known since second grade.