Uhh vent. I've been feeling very sad for days. I feel like everything I do is wrong and I don't know how to do things right. My mom leaves me abandoned to be with a fucking 48 year old gentleman and all ugly and horrible like a fucking ogre because she can't handle the loneliness of the trauma my grandmother left her at 12 years old (she has abandonment traumas). I hate feeling like my friends don't consider me as their friend, yesterday one of my friends pushed me off the stairs at my school but it was my fault because I started first and also they made fun of me for having small breasts. I feel like my "friends" hate me for the way I am, I am not able to love myself I would like to accept myself but no, I can't stand myself and I want to change. And now I'm here, it's 10:01pm eating alone because my brothers are adults and don't live here anymore and my mom is over there. In conclusion my life is sad and miserable, I wish I was 11 years old again.