I know I haven’t vented in a while, but there’s been something on my mind lately.
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I don’t really wanna be in a relationship as much anymore. idk, it’s kinda causing stress on me ?? I’m tired of austin pretty much taking full control over me. he won’t allow me to talk to any of my BEST guy friends. like they’re really close friends where they’re like brothers to me. he doesn’t like the fact that I’m somewhat non-binary. and he always calls me straight when I’m not. I’m pansexual. yes, I know I’m in a straight relationship but that doesn’t mean I’m straight. I’m actually more attracted to females than males tbh. (don’t get me wrong though kokichi’s adorable as FUCK THOUGH LIKE DAMN-)
I kinda feel like a puppet towards him. he never leaves me alone when I want to be. if I do end our relationship though, it’ll hurt him and even me a little cuz I still have some love towards him. idk why I’m getting these thoughts. probably cuz of my obsession over kokichi ?? I know it sounds crazy but I really think that is, and I’ve been kinda crushing on this girl lately. this has also been my longest relationship. In 9 days it’ll actually be 8 months. what should I do..?