I honestly wanna kill myself at this point. I haven’t been eating as much. I don’t fucking care. I want my life to end. but what about austin? what would he do if he lost me? I love him too much to die. he’s been worrying about me cuz I stopped eating, I’ve been scared over nothing, I started cutting again. Goddamnit, thanks anxiety. Thanks for making me feel terrible about myself. I fucking give up.
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I don’t fucking care that I’m supposed to be happy since it’s Halloween. I don’t have happiness.
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I need austin. I need him now. I can’t wait til tomorrow. I wanna hug him. I just wanna write,”I love you” all over a piece of paper and give it to him. it’ll help me feel better. and it’ll make him smile..