The reason why im suicidal is because im hated by popular people irl
The reason why this is a problem is beacuse then others start disliking me too

I cant walk past my parents without fearing that ill get beat
Hate comments ruin my self esteem more
I wont commit suicide because there might be a brain damaged lad who cares
But that wont stop the thoughts from going away
A method that helps me cope is cutting
But
The scars wont go
So i minimise that

My place is bringing joy when told to
Then put away until next use

I know i could have had it worse
But i wish i could have had it better in the start