I'm sorry

I don't want to be this way, I just am.
I don't want to vent
I don't want to be sad
But I am.
So I vent too much.
It takes too much time out of everyone's day just to talk to me and my stupid problems. I wish I didn't have so many problems. I wish I had an amazing life where I feel normal, I don't even need to be happy, I just want to be normal and have a few friends, and not be this mess that I am. I hate caring for so many horrible people who hurt me. I hate everyone who has hurt me. I wish they never came into my life. I would be better off in a different world. In a world where I'm not extremely sad even on happy days, a world where I don't lock myself in my room in the dark and cry. But I don't live and that world and I don't want to accept that. I want to make that world. But I lack the mental energy and I'm just so- so sad and empty always. So that's why I have so many vents. I'm sorry, but that's how it has to be.

Sincerely, me