I've been stressed lately due to lack of sleep.
But I hate sleeping.
Nothing is hard or fun while I sleep. And before I know it, it's morning. Happiness is fleeting. If sleep is fleeting when you are mentally hard, you might as well do what you want to do without sleeping. Time is short, even for a student; a day may seem long, but it is short, and a month is a blink of an eye. And I will be a high school student soon.
I have to admit that I'm anxious about being a high school student, but it's something I need to do to survive in this world. But I am still mentally unstable. But if I'm spoiled, I won't even be able to do the things I used to be able to do. It's too much of a vicious cycle.
The more I pamper myself, the less and less I can do what I used to be able to do, and the more stressful it becomes. I can't do anything. Everyone worries about me.
I am filled with guilt. I don't know what to do anymore.