It's been,, tough
Knowing that something could've happened to the person you love is..
Frightening
I'm relieved but not so relieved at the same time.
I'm still worried about her and the state she's in
I wish I could be there for Aria but it's harder than I ever thought it would be and I wish I could do something to take all that pain away from her
Yesterday was.. Almost traumatizing.
I would've done it
If she hadn't responded, I would have done it
I couldn't bare the thought of her leaving so suddenly with such pain
And I know it's rash, I know it seems stupid
"She'd want you to go on"
"Don't do it"
"It'll be fine"
It didn't seem like much but
Nobody understood
How scared I was of losing her
How scared I was of knowing that she wouldn't come back
And I need her. I seriously need her.
I don't deserve her but I can't help it
And I'm sorry I'm being a pain to you all and saying all this stuff and I know you just want everything to go back to normal like it was just a week ago
And that's why I'm going to leave it with
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I'm sorry.
As long as Aria's here I'm not going anywhere.
And I'll try to get everything back on track
Though it'll take a bit
So please understand and have patience with dumb ol' me.
Thank you;;