I didn't want to vent because there's already too much negativity and I don't want to add to it, but I really need to get this off my chest.
I've just been so fucking sad for the past few days that it's unbelievable to me. I have to rely on this site for happiness because it's the only thing that makes me feel wanted. I feel terrible, and I don't want to put this kind of weight on you guys...
My father's been holding a grudge against me because of an argument we've had a week ago, and I'm still scared of him since he can get... physical when he's angry. My mother doesn't understand the pressure and stress I'm going through and just blames it on hormones and autism. And I feel like my sister is just setting everything up to make herself look like the better child. I'm more certain than ever that she talks about me behind my back and I just can't talk about this with anyone in my family.
I feel like I'm addicted to this site. I feel like it makes me lazy and useless.
I'm sorry anyone reading this has to feel bad for me... I can't keep hiding these emotions but I dont want to hurt any of you. You all make me so happy and I can't express with words how grateful I am.