so this past Saturday. I was sitting in my room casually listening to xxxtentacion. I start thinking and thinking and pondering my mind was thinking about how much I missed him and how much he meant to me. I never really full on cried over him, but for some reason. I cried for an hour and then after that I had no tears left to cry. I really didn't know this was how I felt, I really did care for him, he meant a lot towards me. it breaks my heart every time to hear his voice and see his face in videos. I just miss him so so much and I just hope you guys understand that. also, this year we are going on vacation and we are flying out to Florida. I asked my dad if he could take me to the dealership that x was gunned downed at, I also asked him if he could also take me to his grave. because the address is open to the public and we are aloud to go there. I swear all my life I will never cry so much in my life when I go there. It would probably be hard to leave for me.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YNIJtX-ir50