lowkey just broke up w that one guy
that was like…monday….and it kinda JUST sank in lmao
And I’m gonna be honest here, im feeling pretty fucked up ,,,, more in the sense of “oh im not needed anymore” which is
uh
WILD mainly because i broke up with him, i brought this on myself
While i AM relieved that i dont have to worry about being boring or too needy/clingy anymore
Its also weird, if that makes sense. Im still sad about it
I really liked feeling special, feeling like i was important to SOMEONE, but now thats gone
I miss the affection i would get
But it honestly never seemed fair to me and it never felt real
He was so nice and sweet and patient but i always felt like i was doubting what we had, and it was stressful
The last few months have been AWFUL, with me worrying about all of that
I felt that feeling that way wasnt healthy for me OR him, since i would practically be wasting his time if i was worried all the time about our relationship
and now i cant stop thinking about how much i miss him.
I really hope he finds someone great and amazing
Am i weird for missing him? Am i being toxic? All of my friends say i shouldnt miss him, that i can do so much better. I cant help it i dont know what I’m doing. This guy was my first love, what am i supposed to do? I dont want to hate on him or make fun of him at all. I just want him to find someone that deserves him, but i hate that i feel like i dont
I reslly wanted to get all of this out of my system, im awfully sorry.