I lived and grew up in watching Western cartoons on TV, watching mlp parodies on youtube and show my parents my edgy fnaf drawings (they like it lol). And everyone else is different, too different. I barely make friends with in school or outside of school. I don't have the guts to play with the neighborhood kids. They live in a different world, they live with tiktoks, talking about love life. Listening to those generic vietnamese love music i keep hearing everywhere, scrolling through facebooks. I live with medibang, twitter, art, fandoms, youtube and all of it was western related. We were too different.
Everytime i'm in my class i just draw my ocs in my sketchbook while they have so much fun talking together doing fun dumb friends shenanigans. Everytime i see those neighbor kids playing i keep ignore them and walk into my room pull out my phone and scroll through twitter
Sometimes i wish i wanted to fly to another country and live there or smth.
I'm proud of my country, but sometimes i think i'm not belong here in my own motherland, i'm unable to fit in with them. I felt like a failure as a Vietnamese citizen. Sometimes I feel like I should've been born somewhere else.
Social media is what i love most, especially medibang because it's less toxic and everyone are welcoming. For the first time i feel like people appreciate me for the way i talk, my sense of homour and my point of view in the world. I love this community but those thoughts of reality keeps bugging me and i know i have to accept it.

Thank you for taking ur time reading this, i really need some advice rn.