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bro istg- my siblings hate me. Idk y. Idk wht I did wrong. They all woke up one day and decided to treat me like absolute shit tht doesn’t deserve to even breathe. My little sister calls me worthless, useless garbage. Aiko is so fucking sarcastic and toxic and she gets mad whenever some1 calls her toxic and idfc. My brother used to hit me and push me bc almost all of my family members love to pick favorites. I feel like they all hate me, I feel like they would js be better off without me. Yeah they probably would right? I’m so tired of their shit, it gets on my nerves and makes me js wanna kms. They love love love to bully and torture me, I feel like they’re one of the main reasons y I feel like no one truly cares, even if tht person genuinely means it I can’t help but feel like they’re lying to me. I’m so fucking tired of pretending to be ok and happy. I wanna js continuously cut and cut until I’m satisfied, until my siblings r satisfied, until ppl learn to truly love and care for me. No one cares, not my siblings, not my parents, not my closest irl or online friends. No one. I hve cuts on my arm tht r slowly healing and parents hve been seeing them and ignoring them. Not even acknowledging the fact tht I’m hurting myself. So much for loving parents. So much for being loved. Aiko pretends tht she cares, she doesn’t and Ik it. She thinks I’m fucking stupid or smth. If I told my parents abt this they’re gonna call me ungrateful and make me feel like such a bitch. Saying tht “at least u hve parents who ‘love’ u and siblings who ‘care’” bs. None of my family members care and it’s soooo fucking obvious. I’m so tired of ppl lying and leaving me tht I’m growing attached w ppl r treating me w sm kindness and compassion and I get slightly jealous when I see them forget abt my existence to hang out w others. I js want someone to care. My siblings r living proof tht this world is nothing but cruel. They bully me continuously and nvr think abt how it affects me and my self esteem and self worth. I feel so stupid, I feel horrible for being so annoying all day js to ruin it bc I’m sad my siblings like to bully me. I hate myself as usual, nothing new. I want to get help but idk how, and if I tell them abt how they all treat me they might take me away. Like I want tht-.. I wanna be better. I wanna be good sister. I wanna be a good person. I wanna be someone who doesn’t have abandonment or attachment issues. I can’t even tell Aiko abt how I feel. She’s gonna tell everyone. She’s gonna tell everyone i sh and tht im cringy and depressed. She already told my parents and they all laughed at me, tht hurt so much. I’m tired of this shit family. I am. I rlly am.
bro istg- my siblings hate me. Idk y. Idk wht I did wrong. They all woke up one day and decided to treat me like absolute shit tht doesn’t deserve to even breathe. My little sister calls me worthless, useless garbage. Aiko is so fucking sarcastic and toxic and she gets mad whenever some1 calls her toxic and idfc. My brother used to hit me and push me bc almost all of my family members love to pick favorites. I feel like they all hate me, I feel like they would js be better off without me. Yeah they probably would right? I’m so tired of their shit, it gets on my nerves and makes me js wanna kms. They love love love to bully and torture me, I feel like they’re one of the main reasons y I feel like no one truly cares, even if tht person genuinely means it I can’t help but feel like they’re lying to me. I’m so fucking tired of pretending to be ok and happy. I wanna js continuously cut and cut until I’m satisfied, until my siblings r satisfied, until ppl learn to truly love and care for me. No one cares, not my siblings, not my parents, not my closest irl or online friends. No one. I hve cuts on my arm tht r slowly healing and parents hve been seeing them and ignoring them. Not even acknowledging the fact tht I’m hurting myself. So much for loving parents. So much for being loved. Aiko pretends tht she cares, she doesn’t and Ik it. She thinks I’m fucking stupid or smth. If I told my parents abt this they’re gonna call me ungrateful and make me feel like such a bitch. Saying tht “at least u hve parents who ‘love’ u and siblings who ‘care’” bs. None of my family members care and it’s soooo fucking obvious. I’m so tired of ppl lying and leaving me tht I’m growing attached w ppl r treating me w sm kindness and compassion and I get slightly jealous when I see them forget abt my existence to hang out w others. I js want someone to care. My siblings r living proof tht this world is nothing but cruel. They bully me continuously and nvr think abt how it affects me and my self esteem and self worth. I feel so stupid, I feel horrible for being so annoying all day js to ruin it bc I’m sad my siblings like to bully me. I hate myself as usual, nothing new. I want to get help but idk how, and if I tell them abt how they all treat me they might take me away. Like I want tht-.. I wanna be better. I wanna be good sister. I wanna be a good person. I wanna be someone who doesn’t have abandonment or attachment issues. I can’t even tell Aiko abt how I feel. She’s gonna tell everyone. She’s gonna tell everyone i sh and tht im cringy and depressed. She already told my parents and they all laughed at me, tht hurt so much. I’m tired of this shit family. I am. I rlly am.
