i hope everyones doing well on here, and i really miss all of you dearly. some of you may know i no longer use this account and moved to an alt but that is no longer the case. I had been wanting to leave the internet for a while. But i had people that i didn't want to leave, so i would stay for them. I also just didn't want to leave because i’ve been here forever. This has been the place for my art journey. my first social and a place that i felt cared for and loved. i doubt many of you remember me now though lol. anyways- leaving has been i big idea in my head. This year i recently stopped going to therapy and it made me feel better. I felt a weight lifted of my shoulders and decided that i want to stay online. I wanted to share art and feel like a part of something. I never came back though because a couple months ago something happened. It caused me to spiral and i was unsure what to do. It caused me to stop thinking rationally and act on impulse and every thought, causing me to do even worse mentally. It ultimately helped me decide i would rather stay away from socials, people, and everything. I was sad and still am. Its been causing me to struggle a bit but i feel like i’ll get over it eventually. It also made spending my birthday alone weird. I kept thinking someone would reach out but i already cut everyone off. I just spend it crying in my room alone lol. (anyways yeah im 16 now ^^) sadly (idk if its sad lol) I don’t plan on coming back anymore. I wish to stay away. A place that once brought me joy now just feels like reminders of what once was and i rather not remember. I just want to forget and move on with life, no matter how hard it seems currently. Im slowly adapting to being offline though its still a bit difficult. i visit toyhouse sometimes so if you need me ever, you can message me there. If you guys could please share this around so people know I’m gone for good, or don’t, i don’t mind, I’m just tired. Thank you all for giving me the best years of my life. I will miss you all. I’ll try to answer all comments or messages for the next 24 hours so if you have questions or anything feel free to ask ❤️