He's my baby

IM SO SO SO SO SO SO EXCITED
THERE WAS AN ASSEMBLY IN MY SCHOOL AND THEY DECIDED THAT THIS YEAR’S MUSICAL WOULD BE BEAUTY AND THE BEAST.
I WAS IN THE LAST MUSICAL, MAMMA MIA, WHICH WENT AMAZING, EVEN THE DRAMA TEACHER WAS CRYING OF EXCITEMENT, BUT I THOUGHT THIS YEAR I WOULD NOT BE ABLE TO JOIN BC I’M NOT IN MIDDLE SCHOOL ANYMORE AND I THOUGHT ONLY MIDDLE SCHOOL COULD JOIN.
BUT I NOW HAVE B4 LUNCH A CLUB CALLED “ENRICHMENT CLUB” AND YOU CAN CHOOSE WHAT TO DO.
AND GUESS WHAT, ONE OF THE OPTION IS BE IN THE MUSICAL.
SO ME AND MY BESTIE DUCKYP ARE JOINING AND I WANT TO BE TEAPOT BC YESSS.
ALSO THE ONE WHO SANG THE SONG THE TEAPOT SANG FOR BEAUTY AND THE BEAST LIVE ACTION WAS ARIANA GRANDE AND I LOVE SOOOO MUCH SO I AM GOING TO IMMITATE EXACTLY HOW SHE SINGS SO THAT I GET THE PART.

So umm there was a mosquito in my bedroom and I was like “bitch this is your last day of life”.
My bestie DuckyP knows how much I hate mosquitos specially bc we used to say that my ex (when I was dating him) looked like one and since we broke up I had to kill every mosquito I found and that’s what I’ve been doing The whole summer.
In my bedroom I also have my ex’s plushies that he gave them for me for my bdays and I just like to annoy him so every time he asked for me to give them to him back I said no.
Anyways, I don’t have anything to kill the mosquito with so I killed it with one of my ex’s plushies.
MUAHAHAHA I AM EVIL

I hate my timetable
We’ve got 6 hours of PE per week when last year it was only two and it is all bc my parents forced me to choose PE IGCSE and I’ve also got 9 hours of science per week which is horrible.
I want to cry

NAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
IM STARTING SCHOOL TOMORROW AND I'M ON MY PERIODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
I WANT TO CRY

I'm gonna go dance to kpop songs

I was bored today, and just like everyday, I felt the need to eat sushi bc I love it so fucking much, its my obsession, sushi makes me happy and I make sushi happy, sushi and I are besties.
So I decided to make sushi
I went to buy seaweed and then I came back home, cooked an omelet and chopped some avocado and made the sushi roll with everything together and that’s what I will be eating for dinner tonight, I am so happy

As much as I am rn into kpop, I've always been that person who listens to depressive japanese music, specially vocaloid depressive music like wowaka, kikuo, maretu. Listen to me, when I tell you I have a playlist just for Maretu's songs and I've got all of his songs there I'm not kidding.
Today I am not here to talk about vocaloid or groups like Hitorie (that group is amazing too. R.I.P. wowaka) I'm here to talk abour Atarashii Gakko also known as AG!
It all started in Rome, I was there for a school trip. My friend group is made of 5 guys and 4 girls (including me). One of the guys in my friend group (my ex) isn't in my school anymore (luckily) so he wasn't at the trip with us.
My guys besties were in a room next to our room and we would sneak into each other's rooms at night to play games.
I once went to the guys room with one of my girl friends and one of the guys was showering, ofc with his door closed, but guess who was showering, it was G, the guy who is always rude to me, but at that moment he was so kind to me and idk why but it has nothing to do with my obsesion with atarashii gakko the fact that he was nice with me but, yes.
I screamed "G, I am going to put very aesthetic music for you to shower nice and calmly" and I played Cupid bc he knew that song by hard and we both started singning it while laughing so hard and then he said "play otonablue by atarashii gakko" and I was like "okay" and the song was pretty nice tbh but never gave it a listen after that.
UNTIL ONE DAY, I was listening to Straykids bc they performed for a channel called "the f1rst take" I think, and they sand case 143 but in japanese. I love that song.
But I am very very curious so I looked who else performed in the channel, and saw this familiar looking group, it was Atarashii Gakko performing their song Otonablue. After that I finally gave a listen to a song youtube has been recomending me for the past 2 years, Koi Geba, and the moment I heard it, I couldn't stop listening to it, I had it on loop during the day on Spotify and had it on youtube during the night, it was amazing.
And yet today I still love that group and I am obsessed with 2 other songs they made like in 2019, they were very young back then but their music was still fire.
I think that you should listen to them bc they have a lot of songs, from many genres, so you will find at least one you like, I have like 17 in my playlist and listen to them every single day

My mom was okay today so I told my sister that she could stay today with her, she said “no”
And I was like “fuck you, you are going to sleep with your mom, I don’t accept a no as an answer” bc I wanted her to not see me with my computer at 0:00 bc I want to be the first person to say happy bday to my bf. She said “there’s no way I am going there” but then she sneezed and I was like “OOOOHHH YOU ARE GOING TO MAKE ME GET THE COLD TOO, GET AWAY FROM ME” and my mom took my sister with her to her room and now I am happy

It is miku’s bday today, and tomorrow my bf’s and for days after that mineee
So many bdays

I love how yesterday at 1am I said I was going to watch some asmr and go to sleep and instead watching other videos and ending up sleeping at 6am
I AM AMAZING



Also I am happy bc I did a test earlier to see which member of straykids I am and I got Lee know (My favorite member)

So my little sister sleeps with my mom bc idk and my mom has a cold and she doesn't want my sis to get that cold so she sent her to sleep in my bedroom, I was like "okay, fine" bc I know she sleeps quickly so I could spend some time on my laptop, something I do everyday.
But...
I forgot about something, the bed she sleeps on is like very very loud and she moves a lot while she sleeps, and I don't want her to wake up and see me with my laptop bc she will tell my parents that I am with my laptop at almost 3 am and it will be my last day of life, fr.
Also she jumpscares me bc she talks while she sleeps so she sometimes start saying stuff and she sits in the bed and I think she woke up but she is sleeping.

Wish me luck tonight and for the rest of the week

I HATE SUMMER SO FCKING MUCHHHH
Like May in Spain is a very nice month bc it's warm but not hot, perfect to go to the pool or have a nice walk.
BUT NOT THIS I HATE SUMMER, EVEN THE POOL AND BEACH WATER IS HOT AND IF I GO TO THE BEACH OR TO THE POOL I WANT THE WATER TO BE FREEZING, I WANT TO GET IN AND SAY "Oh this water is very cold" BUT NOW I GO IN THE WATER AND GET OUT BC IT IS B-O-I-L-I-N-G, I am going to throw myself out the window.
The fact that I had to put water and ice on a spray thingy to get me wet and then be in front of the fan to actually be not hot and still be hot is not nice at all. Ik I am kinda exagerating, I live in the South so here now it's like 30 degrees celcius and in the North it's like 32, but, bro, it's fcking 2 in the morning, I cannot go to the pool or beach now, and I am having the worst nigths of my life bc doesn't matter how much I try I am very hot, and I am that type of person who is always hot, I am that type of person who can be wearing short sleeves shirts in January and be okay with it, so this is like hell for me.
I hope I can get to sleep a little but idk if I will be able, my finger hurts already from spraying water on me all day long.

I love how my sister says she is a very big fan of Felix from SKZ and says she wants to marry him and then confuses him with a Japanese vocaloid producer I love.
Like my conversation with her was:
Sis: I really love that stray kids song, I don’t know the name, but I always go to your playlist to listen to it.
Me: Which playlist? (I have that song in both of my playlists)
Sis: Yk… that one that playlist which has a picture of Felix
Me: *confused* I don’t have any playlist with a picture of Felix
Sis: Ofc you do!

FR THE PIC OF THE PLAYLIST SHE IS REFERRING TO:

He was at the doctor so that’s why he wasn’t answering.
Afterwards he spent some time with his dad and wanted to have some time alone with him so that’s why he wasn’t answering either.

Okay so I am in a long distance relationship and I was having a conversation with my bf where he said "I know you will someday cheat on me, that always happens in long distance relationships" It's not that he doesn't trust me, he knows he can trust me, and he does, it's just that sometimes he gets kinda paranoid bc his past gfs have cheated on him and he is very hurt by that, but he is now feeling better thanks to me (I am such a good gf).
There are several reasons why I wouldn't cheat on him:
1. Not that many cute guys in Spain (Specially in the south of Spain which is where I currently live)
2. I am more into Asian guys that I am into Spanish (Ik my bf is from Spain too but he is cute)
3. In Spain you now find a lot of canis and my parents would kill me if they saw me with any of them.
4. Most ppl who cheat, they cheat by doing not very children stuff and I prefer recieving love than doing that not very children stuff (Don't know if that makes sense)
And I replied by saying "there's nothing to worry about and you know that, I wouldn't cheat on you"
He was like "I know, but you know me"
And I was like "There are actually ppl I would break up with you to be w/ them"
and I sent him pics of Lee Know, Hyujin, Felix, Bang Chan, Han and Chanbin from straykids bc those are my favs (I am not saying I don't like I.N. or Seungmin).
And I told him "ofc I couldn't do it anyways, they live very very very far away from me and they are at least 8 years older than me so they wouldn't really notice me, specially bc they are celebrities". (But fr if I could marry Lee Know I would)
and he just started not replying anymore and I was like "but don't be jealous" and he was like "Ok" but I know that ok meant "I am very jealous" so I told him to go to sleep bc that always fixes everything.
He sometimes can be a very jealous guy but he is a very nice person and IK he was mad bc of the context of the situation, I went from "oh don't worry I only like you" to "I AM A VERY BIG SIMP FOR THESE GUYS" and yk, ig I should be more carefull next time. But it's not my fault that I like them or that I watch SKZ thirst traps at 3 am bc I am bored, they are really atracctive

I am going to watch some asmr to go to sleep bc I didn't take a nap today and I am tired.

This one is actually a storytime of GHOSTS so if you are scared of them then just don’t read this, or you can read it and laugh at me bc I’ve had to go through this.

It all started when I was like 8 and I was playing with my little sister who was like really really small at the time. We were in my dad’s room, and my dad was also in, playing in his computer. And idk why, but suddenly we both looked to the door, with no reason, and we notice this very large black hand closing the door, which was slightly opened. And we both freaked out.
We ran downstairs to see if it was my mom who was just pranking us, but it wasn’t her bc she was doing the dishes and she had her hands all full of soap and water and she said she didn’t move from there.
My sister and I got really scared.

The second time I was home alone, I was like 10 yrs old, my dad was at work and my sister and mother had gone to the grocery store to buy stuff. After 10 minutes of them leaving, I heard my sister crying downstairs saying “MOM? SISTER?” and then heard my mom screaming her name.
I freaked out and ran downstairs, no one was there, went outside to see if they already arrived, they didn’t.
They got home like 20 minutes after that incident and I told them what happened and they said they didn’t know anything bout it.

The third time it’s actually really scary, this time I was like 11, again I was home alone, this time was my mom who went to work and my dad and sister to the toy store.
My door was completely opened and I felt I needed to look up to the door for no reason, it was like an urge, I then look up and see a large shadow walking in front of my door.

The next time was like last year, I wasn’t 13 yet, and I was about to sleep, it was like 3:30 am. I closed my eyes, and started to hear a voice whisper my name, the weird thing is that I felt the voice was coming from upstairs but I could hear it clearly like if they were saying it in my ear. The voice was now asking me to go downstairs, saying it had a very nice surprise for me. Ofc I didn’t go downstairs, I’m not dumb, but I always wondered what I might have encountered if I had done what the voice said.
I also couldn’t sleep bc the voice wouldn’t stop, and in my opinion this is the scariest thing that have happened to me.

The story I’m about to tell is exactly a year and 2 days old. I invited my friends to sleep in my house, we were 4 girls in my living room, and we were watching ladybug bc why not, there was this air filled mattress in the other side of the living room with no one on top. And we start hearing like if someone was punching the mattress and no one was around. We were so scared. Also my living room door closed by itself, and you might say “that was the wind” no bc it not those time of doors, it’s that door you move left or right to open and close (idk the name of that time of door).

The ghosts then took a break from me bc they also need holidays, Yk.

So the next time was like two months ago. I was going to the bathroom b4 sleeping.
I always turn off the lights of the bathroom after using it and I close the door. It was like 5am and I was the only one awake in the house and the last one who had used the bathroom.
So I came out of my room to go to the room, and I heard like my bathroom furniture getting hit very very loudly so I didn’t want to open the door but I was about to pee myself so I opened the bathroom.
The noise stopped, nothing visible was inside the bathroom and the light were one but they were blinking.
I then went back to my room after peeing and slept like a baby like nothing had happened in the bathroom.

This other story happened like 3 weeks ago.
I was on holiday, it was 2 am and I was in the hotel room with my family and in the corner of the room, which was pretty dark, I saw like a 3 meters shadow just standing there, it had very long hair and it was very skinny. I felt a very very negative energy coming from that corner, so I barely slept that night.

And the most recent thing that had happened was like last week.
I wanted to take a nap bc Spanish ppl love naps like so fcking much but my bed sheets were being washed so I went to my mom’s room. I then tried sleeping and I closed my eyes, but I was awake still and I wasn’t sleepy at all. And I was laying side wards and I could hear a very loud breathing from behind me I then sat on the bed, I could hear the breathing still, I look behind me and the breathing is gone.

I think they are more scared of me than I am from them honestly.
I’ve already learned how to live with them so I am okay, they aren’t bad spirits of anything. If they were I would have been hurt already.
And that’s it, I don’t have more ghost story times. The thing is I am the only one who seems to notice them in the house and Idk why but it is kinda fun once you get used to it.

Aparently Ariana Grande steals bfs from other girls and now they are exposing her? even tho there aren't any screenshots or anything.
Listen I LOVE Ariana Grande, she seems to be the nicest person, she is now dealing with some things that's making her not eat and I feel so bad that now they are talking more shit about her than they did b4, also she's now in the middle of a movie production, she's the director and one of the characters and I don't want all of this to make her feel worse and do bad on the movie bc of all this haters.

Ik everyone to this point is tired of my long af storytimes but here's another thing I wanted to add:


so aparently I can't reply to my own post bc idk there were like random numbers and things wrote in japanese and idk japanese so lemme paste the text.
It's more info about the guy that I used to like:

Also let me say that the guy that rejected me who we'll call G is very dumb and weird also a very bad person to me.
And idk why tf he is still mad at me if I only liked him for a while when I was 11 and now I'm 14 like grow up dumb idot.
I also went through a very hard time when I was preparing myself for the big last year exams and due to how bad I felt and that I was crying so much I didn't have that much time to study bc the moment I would start to read my notes I would just start crying again. And G doesn't seem to understand that, so after the 1st day of tests, I was talking with my bestie and with G about how was the history test, and I confesed I didn't have that much time to study and G was like "Why is that huh? you had plenty of time to do it" and I said "I was feeling very down" and G was like "Oh come on, it couldn't be THAT bad" and my bestie said "everynight she would come to me having anxiety attacks, leave her alone, it is not her fault" and G said "IDC" and left, LIKE BRO WHYYYY??????????
And he is very nice to others and only a bad person around me. He also said "you seem to eat way too much, you are kinda fat" I LOOK FAT but I'm not. If you have boobs and put on a shirt you will look fat even tho you are not and that is my case. But even if it wasn't who do you think you are to talk about how much I eat, bc I eat like 2 meals a day if that day I'm very hungry I eat 3, bc my dad also judges me a lot and that's why I hate G so much, he is like a nicer version of my dad, but he is still a bad person with me.G also ignores me 90% percent of the time and taht 10% of the times he replies to me he says something mean or rude and I just can't stand him anymore.
Also he tries to make himself interesting. My group of besties and me have been hanging out all summer and everytime we hanged out we invited G but he always had something important to do. And my ex made a group chat for us to plan things and G was like "oh I think I'm busy this day, and this other one" and he would say the entire calendar, like damb boy, we know you don't get any b*tches but you don't have to make yourself interesting by saying that bc its so eww.

This is a storytime of how I was bullied in school.
It all started when I was 6, 1st year in primary bc I was in an Spanish school.
The teacher I had the year b4 was the nicest human being on earth and I loved her soooo much, but that year I wasn't that lucky.
This time it was an old lady, and since the first day she hated me. Kinda sad bc I've always been a very good child.
There was this girl in my class and she was so rude to me, she was the popular girl and she was also the teachers pet (we all know how this will end up).
As her being the teachers pet she would tell me that I couldn't play the games everyone else did and then tell the teacher that it was me the one being rude to her. So I got in detention several times bc of her.
Also, there wasn't paper in the bathroom so if you needed to go to the bathroom you would have to ask permition to the teacher and she would only give us the paper if we needed to poop, and one day I needed to poo so I told the teacher to give me paper and I told her I needed to use the bathroom in the most educated way possible, which she hated and stoped the whole class from working just to make fun of me.
At least that year I got a friend so I was fine.

This happened when I was 7, I just moved to a new house (the one I'm currently in) and I went to a school very close to it.
I introduced myself to all the class and another guy who was also new who we are gonna call MT.
I would get always 90% or 100% on my english tests and he would to, so he started hating me. Like fr he would draw me with my head chopped off and a lot of blood coming off the cut and he was kinda manipulative too.
Also I had this crush who was 2 years older than me and I saw he was MT's friend so I told MT "hey, could you do me a favor and make that guy talk to me? I just wanna be her friend, but I really like him so I'm affraid to talk to him" he said "sure, np".
I'm not kidding when I say the whole fucking school was together and on top of them they had the guy I liked and I was like "oh shit" I ran away and they followed me the whole time until I approached a teacher, they just ran away. I spent a month being next to teachers during breaktime bc I was scared they would do the same thing again. Also let me mention that year I had no friends to play with so I played with the sport equipment and now I am good at many things thanks to that but it was not fun playing alone the whole year.

The year after that I moved to a different school (the one I am currently on). I was now 8 yrs old and bc it was an british school I found it hard at first.
There was this guy and he acused me of picking my nose (don't know if I spelled it correctly) it wasn't very fun bc he also acused me of being cursed and everyone was afraid of me, I've always been "the weird one" so I was used to it already. They would run from me of be disgusted whenever I had to teamup with any of my class mates for a group activity. I didn't like being called cursed and the worst thing no one did anything about it, not even teachers.

The next year (9 yrs old now) I stopped being the cursed one, yay! But this time I was being hit by two of my classmates.
One of them did boxing so it was kinda very painful.
Also I thought I made a friend but she didn't like me to be with other ppl but she would then go and be with other ppl leaving me alone, one day I decided to talk to another girl bc I was on a bench so bored. The moment my friend saw me she started having an ANXIETY ATTACK and would say to people that I was so fake and everyone was againts me once again.

The year after that it was getting better.
There were two new girls in the class and they were twins and one of them hated me just bc I also was friend with her sister, she would be like "HOW DARE YOU I THOUGHT WE WERE FRIENDS", and they made me choose and I didn't know who to choose, so I told them I wasn't going to choose and the one who was jealous of me being friend with her sister got so offended she turned into a furry, I'm not fucking kidding. That year COVID-19 happened and we were locked up.

Idk what happened during the lock up but I had a body glow up, I also got my period for the first time.
And so when we came back to school (I was now 11) I already had boobs, which I was very insecure about, but then found out ppl liked them a lot.
AND WHAT A COINCIDENCE I WAS NOW EVERYONE'S FRIEND IN THE CLASS!!!!
I also liked a guy in my class which now idk how to feel about him as him being my friend.
But he rejected me, bc SOMEONE told him I liked him when they promised me they wouldn't tell anyone.
He would soon regret his choice bc a lot of ppl like 6 or 7 ppl (in my class) liked me that year including his bestie, and I started liking his bestie, is the boyfriend that was with me b4 I met RJ.
But I think that was all my bullying era and it stopped when I was 11.
The guy I liked that rejected me treats me bad now but says he's my friend, he's in my friend group so I can't do much about it.

this is storytime of like more of like the story behind of my last storytime.
The annoying guy I just blocked is going to be called JM
My boyfriend is going to be called RJ (or just R)
The pick me inmature girl is going to be called L
So, me and RJ were very very close friends, like he helped me to get out of my emo depressive era, and made me feel very good about myself when my ex never really did.
RJ confesed his love to me but I was with my ex at that time so I told him that he was a very nice person but that I already had a bf.
Not very long after that, RJ says that I should meet her new gf, which was L, which I did, not really got a very good first impression of her, but I didn't know exacly why.
(In this story at the time I was about to turn 12, RJ was about to turn 13, and ig L was 14 already)
I didn't really heard abour RJ for a long time until like last year (dw RJ and L werent together for that much time, ig they were together for a couple of months) JM came to me and said "L cheated on RJ with me, but you shut the hell up" (I was really close to JM at the time bc I helped him bc he was going through a rough time due to bullying) and bc I wasn't really talking to RJ anyways I kept my mouth shout. But then I saw RJ and he seemed so heartbroken by that shtty girl, and he opened up to me and told me everything he was feeling and as a nice friend I tried to make him feel better just like he did whenever I felt down, and I think his breakup with L made us even closer, but he dissapeared from the world again and I spent last summer talking to JM and his annoying new gf which was L.
She has always been hella annoying but ik how to be a fake friend and I acted cool around her.
There was several times where JM would get mad at me for no reason and tell me the ugliest words, like one time he texted me so mad at me for no fking reason and I swear I ended ugly crying in the floor. (also by the time I was in the other side of the country bc my grandma was dying which made it a hundred times worse)
And then he apologised
and that cycle of him getting mad at me for no reason, after me having to make him feel better every time he needed me, after all I did for him, repeated over and over again.
One day I got like so so so so mad at JM that I was like done, and ignored him.
And RJ appeared again and we swiched phone numbers which we never did.
Now we are in September 2022, a few days after my grandma died. We spent the next day talking all the time, like we would talk 24/7 and bc we didn't live like very close I couldn't see him and he couldn't see me.
I was also in a long distance relationship with my ex and he didn't really have the time for me.
One day RJ and I were talking and started to talk with pics.
And he said "you have the best personality and very good vibes, you are very clever, you also have a very good body..." and I said "if that was true I would be the perfect girl" (I was very insecure at the time bc of my dad...but anyways) he then said "you are perfect for me" and I got so red dude like fr and I was like "do you like me?" and he was like "I really do" and I was like OHHHH SHTTTTTT bc I don't like having to break anyone's heart. And I said "yk I have a bf" (I WAS STILL WITH THAT MONKEY OKAY?) "but if I wasn't with him I would date you" and he was like "really?" and I was like "ofc, you make me feel so good about myself, you are such a nice person, you are very cute.."
He then needed to go to football, and we talked about everything afterwards.
We didn't stop talking and there was a point where I also started liking RJ and instead of not talking to him for me to forget him I told him I started to have feelings for him.
You can see me as a bit of a cheater bc we were planing to do stuff when we saw each other, with the excuse that it would be all for learning reasons, so it would be fine. Well the thing is we kept talking and talking and he met my ex, who was still my bf even tho I liked RJ more and they got along pretty well.
Coming close to november RJ and I had planned for me to break up with my ex in december, I told him I would do it at the beggining of 2023 and he said "Deadline: 1st January" but I didn't want to break up with him that day, wouldn't be a very happy new year for him right? so I told my friends and they gave me advice and finaly I broke up with him the 27th of December, I'm so sorry for him. And RJ and I were very happy.
UNTILLLLLL
THE UGLY WITCH L COMES TO FCK UP OUR RELATIONSHIP
All this started bc now that L, JM, RJ and I were all friends (not really) we said "let's see which couple breaks up sooner" and that's what we did, and RJ and I planned on something.
The four of us were all going to play a game that night, and he was going to fake flirt with L so that she would break up with JM.
I was calling him when he flirted with her, so that I could tell him if I think what he was telling her was way to much or if it was okay with me (RJ didn't want me to think he would actually cheat on me and wanted to make sure I was conforable with the whole plan) we ended up winning bc L broke up with JM but I was with RJ.
But it is true that she as a pick me would do anything to get her a man, and that man she wanted was my man. So RJ sent me some audios L sent him recently saying "Why didn't you tell me already good night? I want my good night" I was cringying so hard, bc she even forced a cute voice on herself.
She was starting to talk shit about me which made me feel very insecure about if RJ was going to fall with the lies or not. I ended up having a discussion with him but he calmed me down, he then told me he wouldn't talk to her anymore, but just if I didn't talk to JM bc he was also very manipulative and mean, I accepted. And now everyone's happy except for my ex (Ig he forgot me already its been like 9 months)
L isn't the happiest one either but it's okay, havent heard from that witch since long ago, which is actually very nice bc I HATE HER.
If you want more storytimes like how I started dating my ex or anything bc SO MANY THINGS HAVE HAPPENED TO ME then just say it bc I'm bored.

This is a pretty long storytime.
So recently I invited some friends to a sleep over at my house, we didn't sleep at all and my face looked like a fucking zombie + I had mascara all over my eyes.
I decided to send a dumb pic of me looking like a zombie to a "friend" of mine (wouldn't really call him a friend, he's been calling me annoying recently when he's the one acting flirty around me all the time when I tell him to stop) and he replied with an "you are ugly as hell"
And I'm like EXCUSE ME? HAVE YOU LOOKED AT YOURSELF IN A FCKING MIRROR?
I'm not kidding when I say he is as ugly as my ex, and for you to be as ugly as him you have to be very very very ugly (fr my ex looks like if a monkey and the Ness Lake's monster muted together and had a baby, that would be him).
So I insulted him, like rn, it's currently 2am so I was 100% sure he wouldn't read it like rn but he did and didn't reply and I told him that it wasn't a good idea to insult me when I'm on my period and I told him I would block him.
I feel so good now
Like I don't even know why I started to talk to him again, he sent screenshots to my bf like in may with my conversations with that guy but like way too out of context (Like fr I was comparing him to my ex saying that even my ex was more handsome than him and he cutted out the part where I was insulting him, just leaving the part when I say "My ex is more handsome" leading my bf into a very messed up conclussion) And we broke up bc of that guy, but I made amends with my bf and now we are back together. Yay!
And my "friend" said he didn't send the screenshots to my bf, that he sent them to my bf's ex's friend (Don't know if it make sense, its the bff of my bf's ex) and aparently my bf's friend sent it to my bf (which kinda makes sense tho bc she is so jealous that I'm with her ex and that it's not her the one with the attention, like I'm about to turn 14 and that girl is 16 and I'm more mature than her, she's just a dumb pick me)
But anyways I started texting him again and we ended up like this.
I'm so happy tho, I kinda feel releaved, bc I feel that I cannot be myself with that type of ppl.
If you are still reading then congratulations, you are bored. jk don't be mad at me.

I hate summer, I’m fr melting and can’t go to the swimming pool bc of my period.
Also my dad is making me do maths exercises.

So, recently there has been like a fan meeting and she was nice to everyone that came.
People say the bad coments were for the fake fans and that only the real ones would stand understanding her humor.
I've always known about her iconic dark humor but I still think she went a little too far.
But anyways, I LOVE HER and I will continue to do so.

I got back from vacation a few days ago and now I'm watching all the drama I didn't see for this week.
Just found out Doja Cat has been extremely rude to her fans and seems that she doesn't want to be famous anymore.
She is also dating a very racist white guy which also seems to be a p*do and ab*ser which doesn't make the situation any better.
Kinda sad bc she is so talented, I hope all this stuff is just a phase, I honestly love her sooooo much and I hate her being so rude to her fans that got her to where she is now.

Just found out a bottle i've been reusing for several days now clearly says "DO NOT REUSE"
I'm still gonna drink from it anyways...

I might just found the creepiest vocaloid “song” ever (idk if it can even be called a song bc fr that sht was terrifying).
I love scary movies and horror in general, it is very very fun for me (for example if I dream about clowns trying to kill me I wouldn’t consider it a nightmare as other people would)
And I’m telling you, after listening to that song I started ugly crying, how could anyone have invented anything like that, I’m still crying.
The name of the video es “Crushed Mary” in case you wanna listen to it -I DO NOT recomend it tho-
Like fr it leaves you with a very weird feeling. If anyone decides to listen to it and they en up traumatized not my fault, I do not recomend it.
Don’t listen to it with headphones and keep your volume down if you are actually going to listen to it.

Idk if anyone here knows about Kooleen's drama.
If you don't I will speak about it to give a little context and my opinion.
Kooleen is an artist and influencer most known for her dark humor which everyone seemed to love. Until she posted a video rating her followers' art and saw a drawing of a black african woman with a very "large" chin.
Kooleen always draws people with european appearence which usually have a smaller chin. And Kooleen having that information inside her head, when she saw the black woman drawing she liquified the chin to make it smaller and explained that it doesn't have to be that big.
A lot of people look dissapointed by this act and they are hating a lot on her and calling her racist, even tho she didn't mean to offend anyone, she only convirted a drawing onto what she knows.
I think Kooleen already deleted that video but people keep asking for an apology video.
In my opinion I can understand that some people might be offended, but they shouldn't really take it THAT seriously, she knows the information she knows and ther only intentions was to teach other people her knowledge. I know I am no one to say that what she did was right as a white person but I've been scrolling through the comments of her last video and there are black people saying it isn't that offensive also if they have known kooleen since a long time ago bc she uses dark humor in all her videos with no intention to offend anyone. And I have also seen black people saying that it was racist to think that all black people have a large chin but I'm not really planing to comment anything on youtube, I don't really like fighting.
And that's it ig...
I just feel bad for her getting all those hate comments and I think haters should be patient and let her take her time on making an apology video instead of making her rush.
IDK WHY IT SOUNDS SO SERIOUSSSSSSSSSSSS

Idk why but suddenly I started feeling very down. Anyways, I found a very fun art OC challenge.
I wonder how it will turn out.

Idk why I always end up sleeping at 7am bc I’m not tired at all. And my parents don’t let me take naps coring the day.
Even thought I’ve slept like 2 hours today I’m not sleepy at all for some reason, it is so weird.

I’ve been offline for the past month and now I have to go through all my fyp to see if there’s anything interesting and to like the latests illustrations from ppl I follow. I’m so lazyyyy