Somebody give me a reason why I should still be living
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- 07/1924 ㅤ Retired
- 12/2023 TheFuture
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Touhou music
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Shinmyoumaru
I deserve to die
I really should die
I don't deserve to live
I'm worthless
But I can't die.. just yet
What am I doing with my life?
Waiting for my death, basically
Just forget. Forget
10-04-22
Hey, do you really like me?
Do you need me as much as I need you?
I don't think I've ever been a priority
While you give it to everyone, they never even tried
10-03-22
Hey, what really am I to you?
I wait for you every single time
Am I the only one?
Those people are lucky
If I was a bit more like them, will you like me more?
When happiness is gone,
It will turn into pain and suffering
When I die, nobody will ever notice
Maybe everyone will celebrate
I'd love to see people dance in my grave 💃🕺
At least I won't be lonely anymore
And who even actually cared about me, wtf
I should really stop lying to myself, I'm soo pathetic
Nobody has ever made me their priority
While I prioritize them a lot, damn
I'm just your temporary happiness
Or pain ;)
I don't wanna do anything anymore
This world is so unfair
How come they all have better lives than me?
Why am I like this
I know it's bad to feel like this
BUT WHY
NOTHING EVER REMAINS THE SAME AS THE GOOD THING THEY WERE
EVERY TIME I HEAR THAT NAME
I FEEL LIKE I WANT TO HANG MYSELF UP
EVERY TIME I SEE ALL OF THEM
I FEEL SO WORTHLESS
WHAT HAVE I EVER BEEN TO YOU.
WHY DO I ALWAYS END UP GIVING MORE THAN THEY ALL DO
I DON'T WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE
Everything I see
Reminds me of how much I want to die
Everything is just so unfair
I don't belong wherever I go
My feelings don't have any meaning to anyone
I'm so tired
And nobody's here
But I don't really want anybody to be here
But I also do
I'm so confused
I really want to die
I could just say it tho
What do I do
YOU'RE A FUCKING DISGRACE.
Look at what you did.
Everything will never be the same again.
He will never love you like he did before.
And it's all because of you.
You and your stupid shit .
Keep hoping for nothing, dummy!
Aaaa he's so friggin cuteeee qwq
Do you also miss those days? Can we please be like that again?
I wonder, when can I see you like that again..? I miss you so much, when will you be here again?
Seeing him happy
Makes me so happy
Even though it's unlikely to happen now
I'll just keep hoping
Everything will be better soon
Things are getting worse
And yet he's not here
He could at least say hi or anything, really
But what am I supposed to do
He doesn't want to
And I doubt that he will
I hate everything
Except art
This world is cursed
Only a few things in this world makes me want to live
The rest is why I would want to die soon
Damn I need some therapy
Nobody has made me happier and hurt than he did
Whenever I see those, I break down
I've prioritized so much but I've never got it in return
Am I really that worthless?
I'm so tired
I keep hoping for the impossible
Even the smallest things you do make me so much happier than you think
Even though you do better things for others
But who am I to desire those things?
I must've been out of my mind
All those sweet happy things only happen in my dreams
Such thing as "dream come true" is a lie
Unless if you're lucky
And I'm not
I fucking hate myself
I hate my life
I wish I could die soon
Nobody likes me
I wish I'll forget about everything
All the things I hope for
Are killing me slowly
Because they weren't real
And will never be
like bro stfu
or maybe it should be me
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WHERE THE FUCK DID I FIND THIS FROM AGAIN LMAO I FORGOR
just let them be happy while i suffer for no real reason
i can't believe i used to do that
so fucking annoying
or maybe it's because it was...
it's not like anybody would actually like me
why am i still hoping
It still hurts