I just looked at my old art from when I first started posting medibang digital art
And dang I was terrible 😭
Bro me and other people really thought my art was good
Proportions were out of the question brudda
Words could not describe how much i CRINGED

LOOK AT HOW BIG I MADE THIS GIRLS NECK
WHY DID I DRAW LIKE THIS💀💀💀

I might redraw some of my old work to see how much i have improved

I'm kinda uneducated on the artist world
Because I'm YOUNG
So I have 4 main questions
What is an art adopt?
How do you do studies?
What are art trades?
How do you do art trades?
Please answer me if you are educated
🙏🙏🙏

LIFE FEELS GOOD
OH MY GAWD
ITS ALL GETTING BETTER
AAAAAAH
😁😁😁😁😁

THE SKETCH ALWAYS LOOKS BETTER THAN WHEN I COLOUR
AAAAAAAAGH
*dies*

I only got curls on the ends tho
Ill try it again

I just have the urge to try to curl my hair with no reason whatsoever
Like
My straight hair has no volume
Dgmr i LOVE my straight hair
I look so cute when I dont tie it up or when i do a cute lil hairstyle
And i just think it would be so much fun to just like
Curl curl
And yah

Ill update you

Like
They have so much free time
And they get to dress up and play with makeup all day
They literally live like children

I know its already June 15th
But
I
Do
Not
Care.
I am lazy and I forgor it was Pride Month most of the month

Thank god🙏🙏🙏

LOOK AT HOW THEY CASUALLY MASSACRED SPOTIFY
ARE YOU SEEING THIS RN
I JUST WANTED TO LISTEN TO SUMN
AND NOW I CAN ONLY LISTEN TO MY PLAYLIST ON SHUFFLE AND HAVE TO PAY FOR PREMIUM FOR IT TO BE IN ORDER
I CANT EVEN SEE THE SONGS ON MY PLAYLIST I HAVE TO READ THEM OUT
IT LOOKS DISGRACEFUL BRO
PLEASE TELL ME THIS ISNT REAL
I AM ENRAGED

It is so tedious brudda
But ill still do it🥲
This took me
Roughly
1 hour
And 30 minutes
And its only 5 seconds.
AND IT STILL LOOKS TRASH

And I had to compress this so much because medibang only allows gifs that are less than 2 MEGABYTES

Recently I was watching a channel reacting to animation videos
And it inspired me to make animation
So I downloaded FlipaClip and made a bouncy ball animation
And I think I might stick with animation more since its artlike and i like art
And i just gained a whole new respect for animators
Because I was trying to animate a 4 letter word
FOUR LETTERS
And it took like 10 - 20 minutes and still looked like trash

So my current hobbies are songwriting and drawing
Let me know if you have new hobbies <3

This time its not completely depressing😀
And its a mixed language song containing english and french
Its about croissants, baguettes, going mad over hunger, and hitting people in the head with a fish
Ill update you when its done

Because I'm a sad little girlie in a sad little worldie
Is that a word?
Idk
Neither of my songs are recorded yet so you cant listen to them sadly
But you can get an AI to sing them idk tho
ANYWAYS
(Btw this song still isnt finished)
ANYWAYS

Attention Span - Ashiia ft. Duckii (both me)
Verse 1:
Playin' with my pen
Over and over again
I tune out of the same lesson
"You need to do this and that to get 10"
I'm in my own little world
Drawing little objects and pretty girls
I try to get back to reality
But all this is just a tragedy

They be like
"Oh girl you needa focus"
Ah yeah I can do that like hocus-pocus
The hell you wanna expect from me
I can't focus and I wanna be free
From all the curses
Disperses
All this coming from the universes
It's the reason I'm writing these verses
Me and the world be up like versus

Pre-Chorus:
Attention span is none
Really I just wanna have fun
Run around all up in the sun
And maybe I might be done

Chorus:
Why it always gotta be
Me, me, me, me, me, me, me
I just wanna be
Free, free, free, free, free, free, free
Be able to pay attention to the board
But almost nothing would make me ever more bored
Why it always gotta be
Me, me, me, me, me, me, me
"You're so emotional about it."
I agree

Verse 2:
Tryna keep up with my anxious thoughts
(Yeah)
"You is not good enough."
(Yeah)
It's running through my mind a lot
(Yeah)
How do I get it to stop?
(I'on know?)
I don't know, I guess maybe all of this drama might just be a part of the plot
(Yuh)
Leg is shaking
Mind is pacing
Hands are raising
My eyes are gazing
This goes out to the girls feeling anxiety
Or maybe a little bit o' ADD

The signs feel too obvious to not be signs
(Yeah)
For every 10 symptoms I be relatin' to 5
(Uh-huh)
I disregard it all, try to stop the worries and say "You fine"
But in the back of my mind, I know I have this disorder, oh why
I just wanna be able to feel this pressure and not cry
I just wanna be able to not be put off to the side
I just wanna be able to let it all out and whine
Cuz' with my racing mind, I don't think I might be fine
I just wanna be able to go out and say "I want someone to talk to."
But with my anxious thoughts, I feel like I might be judged, boo

Pre-Chorus:
Attention span is none
(Hey)
Really, I jus' wanna have fun
(Uh-huh)
Just wanna play in the sun
And maybe then I'll be done
O-oooh!

Chorus:
Why it always gotta be
Me, me, me, me, me, me, me
I just wanna be
Free, free, free, free, free, free, free
Be able to pay attention to the board
But almost nothing would make me ever more bored
Why it always gotta be
Me, me, me, me, me, me, me
"You're so emotional about it."
I agree

Anyways lmk what you think in the comments
Rate it out of 10
And PLEASE give me answers and not likes
Thank you
Okay thats all love you💙💖

Dang
Ill be honest I used rhymezone for like a lot of the rhymes because im usually terrible at rhyming but we got there
I think im gonna write another song tomorrow
And i feel a little better about my insecurities now that I wrote the song
Its a nice way to vent

Ill record it when i get back from my trip because then my familys gonna know i be sad 🥲
Its probably a little bad and needs a few edits but eh

Dang songwriting is hard
Anyways
Hella Insecurities - Duckii ft. Me
Verse 1:
No I don't gotta
Hairless body, flat stomach
No I don't gotta
Small nose, big peach
But I do got
Hella insecurities, crippling anxiety
And a heart too broken to take this, help me
No I don't got
Confidence
No I don't got
Happiness
But I do got
Hella insecurities, never ending jealousy
Of all the girls at school with the perfect bodies (Hey)

Verse 2:
No I don't have
Blonde hair blue eyes
The ones that make the boys go "Oh my"
Or a very big large chest
One that makes the boys wanna be their best
Instead I got
Hella insecurities
The ones that trigger the saddest memories
Of what Emma said in second grade
And when Jax said "Why do you have so much hair, mate?" (I'on know)

Pre-Chorus:
Why do they have to be so
Perfect?
Is it really
Worth it?
To morph into the perfect girl
Strip myself of all happiness in the world
All because of

Chorus:
Hella insecurities, hella insecurities
Crippling anxiety, crippling anxiety
It drives me cr-cr-cr-cr-crazy, cr-cr-cr-cr-crazy
Not looking like a pe-pe-perfect lady, pe-pe-perfect lady
Why can't I just look perfectly fine
Have them eyes that twinkle in the night sky
They all say I look like a guy
I wish that I could put that behind
They all say I look like a guy
And it's why I have
Hella insecurities, hella insecurities
All of the time

Verse 3:
I have been overthinking
What if, I just be normal?
Know it's a wild thought
But it's been running through my mind a lot
If I was more normal, would I be happier and whatnot?
I'm weird, loud, and sad
It just makes me mad
Everyone's in their own world
And I wish I had the things they had
Sensibility, capability, emotional stability, tranquility, admirability, and less insecurities
Friends, family, hella people that care
And no one to tell me I'm ugly cuz' I'm aware

Verse 4:
Anyone feel the same as me?
Lotta body hair, imperfections, and hella insecurities
But all we can do now is suck it up
Get treated like trash and wait for the 'glow up'
But what if that 'glow up' never arrives?
What is we stay ugly for the rest of our lifes?
This goes out to the girlies with uncertainty
And the same girlies with hella insecurities

Pre-Chorus:
Why do they have to be so
Perfect?
Is it really that much
Worth it?
To morph into the perfect girl
Strip myself of all happiness in the world
All because of

Chorus:
Hella insecurities, hella insecurities
Crippling anxiety, cr-crippling anxiety
It drives me cr-cr-cr-cr-crazy, cr-cr-cr-cr-crazy
Not looking like a pe-pe-perfect lady, pe-pe-perfect lady
Why can't I just look perfectly fine
Have them eyes that twinkle in the night sky
They all say I look like a guy
I wish that I could put that behind
They all say I look like a guy
And it's why I have
Hella insecurities, hella insecurities
All of the time

All i need to do is add a bridge, another chorus, and an ending but im gonna do that tmrw because im ✨tired✨ of ✨songwriting ✨
Let me know what you think of the lyrics in the comments and if you would listen to it
Please give me answers and not JUST likes
Okay thats all
Love you 💖

I'm gonna write the song about my insecurities
Because thats what usually hits me the hardest
Okay thats all love you💙

Ok
I was looking for an AI song lyric generator and it got me thinking

Could I write my first song?
Like
I know very well it won't be like a hit single charting on billboards because I can't sing
But there's a first time for every thing and it seems fun
I think I'm gonna make it about jealousy because there's this guy that has the perfect life in school and I know him because I did an assembly with him once.

He doesn't even keep in touch and I'm comparing myself to him and it makes me sad

But anyways I'll keep you updated on how writing this goes

And updating my account
Heres a picture of the wip

Im going for mystic elf fairy vibes

My friend made a fanfiction about their life and I love it
Check out the first chapter
By the way i helped edit it because my friend makes typos in every other sentence 💀
anyways
CHECK IT OUT

Chapter 1 - Noah, Noah, Noah
---Sunday, February 5th, 2016---
Dear Diary,
Hello :). My name is Kassy and I'm 13 years old. I have 2 best friends named Angie and Mindy and... a crush! Starting from tomorrow, I'm gonna write about everything in my life since I finally got a diary! Anyways, my crush's name is Noah. I love him but he can get really annoying sometimes. It's a frenemy relationship. However, a lot of people ship us together in school. I really hate having to pretend I don't like him, but I think he likes me too! At least, that's what I hope... It's February 5th and we are going on a ski trip on February 22nd! I'm so excited. I'm gonna ski for the first time. I'm also look forward to Valentine's Day. I wanna ask Noah to be my Valentine. Should I pass him a note or should I just tell him since he sits beside me? I think I'll go with the note. Anyways, I'm going to do some homework. We have a ridiculous math test tomorrow, and on a Monday! But I should study afterwards as well if I'm gonna pass. And, I'm gonna listen to my favourite songs! They're all in my Spotify playlist. I'll share the playlist with my friends right now so we can listen to it on call together.
Love,
Kassy

---Monday, February 6th, 2016---
Dear Diary,
Okay. Agh. Today was really peculiar. It was a nice day today, oddly very warm, and I met up with my friends at break. we played together on the playground (lunch break, by the way, we can go on our playground at that time)
So, me and my friends Mindy and Angie are sitting on the slide, right? Noah and his 2 friends, Carl and Jason come up to slide as well, me and my friends try to do a train (one behind the other), and they say "Oooh, can we join in?" Mindy and Angie said sure on cue, and NOAH SAT RIGHT BEHIND ME... I WAS BLUSHING SO HARD! I literally ignored face to face contact until they got off and stopped. They kept following us around and we sat down on these seats at the playground, and me and Noah had a decent conversation. He was really funny! I made him laugh a couple times as well. Then we sat inside and i rambled on about it to my friends, I think they were a bit annoyed. Then, at our last break, I saw this girl all over Noah... I was staring mostly at them with my friends all recess, then these girls came up to me. One was named Manha and she said to me "Kass, Trixie is trying to steal your boyfriend! you should probably do something about it, just in case.". I was in shock. I said he was not my boyfriend, but still went over there. She was talking about her new skirt she got or something, interrupted her boring attempt, and said "Noah, can you PLEASE.. tell them that we aren't a thing." and he grabbed me by the waist and whispered in my ear saying "I want them to think we are a thing." And he WINKED at me. I obviously turned red and explained that I blush easily and ran away. After that, the Trixie girl stormed away and Noah ran up to me. He said that he was just saying that to make her back off, but I would like to think what he meant was true.
Best wishes,
Kassy

---Thursday, February 9th, 2016---
Dear Diary,
So, it's Thursday now. Sorry, I forgot to write but I was hanging out with Angie and Mindy at the spider web, and Noah comes up to us with his friends. He was walking in a bizarre way. I asked why he was here, and he wanted to talk to me in private.
Private??
Why would he wanna talk in private?
I started to overthink about it as we walked somewhere private. We were at the sand pit and he said "Okay, I'm gonna get straight to the point... I know this will be weird to ask of you since you don't really like me, but since Trixie is mostly jealous of you hanging out with me, she's trying to hang out with me more while you are around." I interrupt him abruptly by saying "Like yesterday while me and my friend group were hanging out at the spider web and you were in the sand pit here, she was all over you, beside you making hearts and getting close, I was gonna do something about it since I saw you were uncomfortable and your friends couldn't realize it because they were too busy teasing you two, but I didnt since it would seem weird. I am a nice person so I dont like seeing people in those positions, even if it's someone I hate to the guts".
"Yes, like yesterday for example, and please PLEASE do me one favour." he says
"What's the favour?"
"Can we like... fake date or something like that till she backs off for good, and then fake a break up?" I was in shock of the question, but I remembered how uncomfortable I saw him look yesterday, and since I have real feelings for him this could be my one and only chance in case I never express my feelings for him! Or if we don't at all.
"I'll have to think about it Noah... I'll give you a yes or no by the end of today, just give me some time to think about it because stuff could happen during a fake relationship." "Alright, thanks" he says in a smile.
I already had my answer, OBVIOUSLY YES!! Told my friends about it, only Angie and Mindy though. At the end of the day while we were at our lockers, I went up to him.
"You got your answer?"
"Yes" I said. "I will... do it, but only because a part of me feels bad about what she's doing just to make me jealous or something" I put out my hand for a handshake to affirm the favour is in action so he shakes my hand and we walk out together with Mindy on my other side, after he walks away far enough, I excitingly told Mindy about everything! I'm so excited for tomorrow...
Love,
Kassy

---Friday, February 10th, 2016---
Dear Diary,
Goodness, this week has been wild. Okay. So, I walk inside, I unlock my locker,
I put my bag in and close it and I walk, and he hugs me from behind! He whispers in my ear "If we want this to work, we have to make it believable to our classmates as well, especially since some of them are friends with Trixie"
I nodded and smiled, everyone looked at us as we walked inside, I read my book and Mindy saw I was blushing really hard, she laughed it off and said "Marry him already bro".
I replied "Shut up" with a smile. We laughed and we drew together while he hung out with his friends, break comes along and me an Mindy walk outside and meet Angie and Alice, another member! I tell them all about it and then Noah walks up to us so I stop talking about it, then he signals to me that Trixie's looking and getting even more jealous, he looks uncomfortable again so I decided to grab his hand and hold it, walked over there and asked what she was doing, and she said "I'm fighting for what I deserve, you prick.". Sure. You definitely deserve Noah if he hates you.
I wrapped my arm around him and she saw him blushing and turned around sassily, I smiled at him and walked back over to my friends, so he got his friends and hung out with us, he also sat with us at lunch! I'm loving school now! Nothing else really happened but we made some agreements on stuff which I won't get into, but I
can't wait for Monday now! Also, he said we should probably meet up on Saturday or Sunday, gave him my number to arrange it properly so yeah! I just want to talk more about all this stuff.
I love him.
Sincerely,
Kassy

what do you think
Also check out my frwen
Ill put her link in the comments

I think my realism skillz have improved a lot
Lmk what you think

Also I can assure you I did not intend to make her look like a blue haired liberal that poorly put on her lipstick

She's a nice lady I promise
Pinky promise🤙

And i wanna go over the outline with markers so i can colour it in
But idk part of me feels like it needs something else

Should i go over or should i go back and give it some more

Also I need answers not likes please 😭😭😭

Kass dont fall for this lady she's a scammer
She does this to everyone

not the best thing because i used a template
but yknow it's nice
it's also kind of a name reveal and website reveal because I put my name and website link in there

check it out:
https://aisha-draws.carrd.co/

thank you dex for the idea <33

I was working on a good artwork and Medibang just decided to exit for no reason
Now all of the details are gone and i have to redraw them
Screw you Medibang paint😤

Theres this guy on my wix site that has been there for like 10 minutes
And ive been trying to contact him in malay because wix said he is from malaysia and im also from malaysia

But he keeps ignoring me😭

AND I GOT A VISITOR
Its still in alpha and probably wont be finished for another week or so
BUT IM SO EXCITED
i created it as a lil way to get more fame but what if it actually takes off?

Im considering making a carrd as an introduction for myself to out there because i saw dexi make one and i was inspired (thank you dexi<3)

I used wix btw if you wanna make one as well
I read a blog on an art website (studentartguide.com) saying that you should use wordpress and bluehost if you actually wanna be successful and serious about art and they had a lot of clarifying reasons but im not quite serious about my art yet because im just a beginner so i decided to just use wix BUT
IF YOU ACTUALLY WANNA BE SUCCESSFUL
USE WORDPRESS AND BLUEHOST

Please comment something on this post
Anything
I bej you please
I need to fix it

MediBang timeline becoming depressing again
Thought I'd pour out my feelings and problems into one thing since it'll just become another depressing post.
You can skip if you want.

I hate myself. I don't know why I'm the way I am. I'm just a loud ball of energy with no emotional stability that everyone finds annoying. I have friends that can't put up with me sometimes and I lost a friend because of the way I am. I cry like every week, I'm hella loud, I'm becoming dumber day by day, and I'm just ugly. I can't suck it up and just move on from it. I have to be like this and be "happy" about it by acting like a clown. These are only some bad traits about me. I'm not likeable, I'm not a good friend, I'm jealous of everyone, the list goes on. Why can't I be a normal person who's smart and likeable? Why can't I be that good friend everyone needs? Why am I like this? Just why?

My friends. One's annoyed with me all the time. One has a friend that will dislocate my fingers if I talk to the friend in front of them. One is mad at me because I'm too aggressive. And one's moving away. I just wish they could put up with me AND be there with me. It's not fair. It's not just my friends. Everyone doesn't like me. I got somewhat bullied at school, the troublemaker girl has beef w me, and I'm pretty sure all the boys don't like me.

I wanna just go back to being born and have a fresh start at life. Dodge all the mistakes I made but still learn from them. And not have to put up with any of this.

You can fight me on this
But emo girl by Machine Gun Kelly is actually not that bad of a song
Not the best
But it's a good song and I would listen to it on loop
"BUt DuKky ItS abOut EmO GirllLs ANd thAts CRinGy"
ITS NOT ALWAYS ABOUT THE MEANING BEHIND THE LYRICS, ABIGAIL
ITS ABOUT THE RHYTHM AND BEAT
END OF DISCUSSION