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is it bad that I know I’ll die from suicide before I’m even 14 (in four months, March 14th, I’ll be 14) I’m pretty positive on what I could do to finally make my suicide work..
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Gone :/
Genre
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is it bad that I know I’ll die from suicide before I’m even 14 (in four months, March 14th, I’ll be 14) I’m pretty positive on what I could do to finally make my suicide work..
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is it bad that I know I’ll die from suicide before I’m even 14 (in four months, March 14th, I’ll be 14) I’m pretty positive on what I could do to finally make my suicide work..
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I'm experiencing an artists block, and also depression.
Funny tho, just a few days ago I felt like my life was great!
Crazy how hurtful words can change your mind on a dime🤔
Especially when you truely care about the person that said them
Makes you wonder if you really are rude. (I already know I am, you don't have to tell me)
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I'm experiencing an artists block, and also depression.
Funny tho, just a few days ago I felt like my life was great!
Crazy how hurtful words can change your mind on a dime🤔
Especially when you truely care about the person that said them
Makes you wonder if you really are rude. (I already know I am, you don't have to tell me)
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so austin asks the most random questions at the most random time. well smol roleplay on this:
austin: if someone doesn’t name their kid, what do they call them?
me: what people call me! I’m nothing! (ye, I’m still a depressed bean)
austin: kylie..you’re not nothing-
me: mhm..then what am I?
austin: *pulls me in for a tight hug* my baby~
me: *SCREECHING AND FANGIRLING HARD IN MY HEAD* >/////<
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For me, the only thing that sucks about it
Is death..
Like there’s no “oh I’ll see them again in Heaven, Hell, The new world, my next life, when we get reincarnated, in a vision, etc.”
Nope.
I’ll just never get to see that person again
Ever.
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Thx to CosmicBlue, apparently the ship name is now “Techo” :T
*cough whez cri die*
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I’m getting sick and tired of toxic people on here saying venting and saying you wanna commit suicide is attention seeking. You don’t understand what the hell is going on in our lives. If you hate it when people vent a lot, then fucking ignore them if they bother you so much. Venting helps me and other depressed/suicidal people calm down. We can vent all we want until we’re calm. You can’t control that. It isn’t your right. How would you feel if you were depressed and people called you a disgusting freak, attention seeker, child, etc? I bet you wouldn’t fucking like it so you have NO RIGHT to call us, people who are suicidal, terrible things. Some people on here are so toxic. They think they know everything about our lives when they fucking don’t.
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austin’s coming over again tomorrow..should I tell him about last night and show him my suicide note?
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I’m okay..there’s no need to worry..the noose failed last night..it wasn’t tight enough..
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I don’t belong in this world. all I get is torture and hate. yes, I’m loosing my battle but I’m not a fighter. pain hits me hard. I can’t handle the pain anymore. just remember, I love all of you guys and I always will. I had a great time talking to you. but this is it..my final words..goodbye <3
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I don’t belong in this world. all I get is torture and hate. yes, I’m loosing my battle but I’m not a fighter. pain hits me hard. I can’t handle the pain anymore. just remember, I love all of you guys and I always will. I had a great time talking to you. but this is it..my final words..goodbye <3
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I'm making a second account. I don't exactly feel like saying the name but I'll post art on there too. Just wanted to let you know👌 . you'll know it's me because it will have the same art style. I'll still comment and stuff on this account and occasionally post something, but it's good to get a nice fresh start, y'know? I just wanted to say this just incase you were thinking of unfollowing because I dont post much.
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I’m sorry that I only mess things up.
I’m sorry that I have an annoying personality.
I’m sorry I’m a waste of space.
I’m sorry I’m a waste of time.
I’m sorry I’m such a failure.
I’m sorry I’m a huge fuck up.
I’m sorry I can’t do anything right.
I’m sorry that I’m not enough.
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I feel like everything is broken
Everyone is so sad and broken on medi bang I might leave for good this time
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I honestly wanna kill myself at this point. I haven’t been eating as much. I don’t fucking care. I want my life to end. but what about austin? what would he do if he lost me? I love him too much to die. he’s been worrying about me cuz I stopped eating, I’ve been scared over nothing, I started cutting again. Goddamnit, thanks anxiety. Thanks for making me feel terrible about myself. I fucking give up.
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I don’t fucking care that I’m supposed to be happy since it’s Halloween. I don’t have happiness.
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I need austin. I need him now. I can’t wait til tomorrow. I wanna hug him. I just wanna write,”I love you” all over a piece of paper and give it to him. it’ll help me feel better. and it’ll make him smile..
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Here, trick or treating was moved to today because it’s gpnna rain a lot tomorrow.
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Ya know what’s sad about this Halloween?
Every other Halloween. I had friends to go with. Here, I’m alone.
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sometimes I wonder,”how am i able to survive the times we go home after school and the weekends without him..?” my mind is always on him and I can’t stop thinking about him..I need him every second..I just wanna hug him forever and let him know how much I love him..he’s my everything..my mind is never off him..<3
(yes, this is about austin)
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Thx to CosmicBlue, apparently the ship name is now “Techo” :T
*cough whez cri die*
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And I didn't draw anything at all
Because I can't do anything but waste time
The entire 24 hours I could have spent drawing and I wasted it all
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Illustrations
BHLACKJACK
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so austin was saying how he wants me to be the girl he’s with forever >///< and I said,”but I’m obsessive and a yandere and you don’t like obsessive girls” and he said,”well I like your obsessive personality and damn..I’m guessing yanderes can kiss good~”
I literally sat there and squealed so loud >/////<
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so austin just left and here’s a list of all the cute things we did/he said :3
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•WE HAD OUR FIRST KISS ;w;
•we cuddled up together and held hands pretty much the whole time :3
•when his parents left to drop him off he said,”I’m pretty sure my parents left but I wasn’t paying attention” and I said,”that’s your fault” xD and he said,”well I was focusing on someone more important” and hugged me
•he wrapped his arms around me and laid his head on my shoulder and kept saying,”I love you”
• he kept giving me adorable tickle fights
•THERES MUCH MORE BUT THOSE ARE THE THINGS I FIND THE CUTEST-
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oml I get to see austin today aaaaa
I’ll update you peeps if anything cute happens xD
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Today is the last day of the vacation, sooo...
It was just that one night.
And I talked to my mom about depression. .w.