My new sketchbook cover. I feel like it still looks really empty.. Doesnt it look like its missing something? Maybe it needs color..

"anyone can betray anyone" ~ Julian Jacos (red queen) i learned this the hard way
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Today was a school dance, keep in mind this is middle school so like this is 11-15 year old people in a gym.

Aaaanywhoo.. I was gonna go with violet (as friends to just hang out) but she couldn't go cause her brother had a soccer tournament. So i was gonna hang out with max and his date, but apparently i was 'scaring him away' according to max so i had to leave them alone. It was terrible, i had already had one emotional breakdown the night before and then this. One of my biggest fears is abandonment, and to be abandoned by someone i thought i could trust was horrible. I ended up leaving after 20 minutes of being there.. so yea

I need a name for my alien child, i have a few but if you want a different one that is fine aswell
The name options are:
Sunay
Sundara (or sundaru i cant read my handwriting)
Vivek
Bartholomew
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Link to the Poll: https://strawpoll.com/wfd2e66b

I made characters for goretober should i put them all in one scene or do like individual drawings for each one?

First off this is the last poem thing this month, i know fucking hooray
Anywho i have a new perspective on my friendship with 'Violet'
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ my friendship with her has turned out to be less painful than i thought, for, now instead of a pitfall our friendship is a road, and yea sometimes she's the one making the potholes, but shes also pretty much always the one with the concrete. We both have our faults and that is just fine, i dont know what i would do without this friend of mine.
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This one is pretty clear, and i MAY have overreacted just a tad. I do have other friends, but only one who is as close to me as Violet and that is Max. Max is pretty great he just got married the other day, i was the officiator, it was great. The thing is, Violet and i both have jealousy issues mine are just less demanding and more fueled by loneliness. Anywho back to the subject, Violet is more real with me, thats how i know the laughter she shares with me is real, when shes in a bad mood shell tell me (or ignore me) while shell fake a laugh with her other friends. And through her rough exterior and most of her mean interior there is a kind and caring person, who buys me gifts when she goes places (no, i dont ask her to) and invites me to come to plays and movies with her and her family.
Thanks for listening to my problems
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May you're days be better than mine,
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Being friends with her is like having a hole in my heart being slowly filled with concrete, layer after layer until it is almost to the top. Then along she comes, with a jackhammer tearing through the layers like paper, making the hole bigger and it starts all over again.
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so basically this means that my friend (ill call her violet) is a bitch but i love her like a sister. we get along fine every day, shes like my only friend (sad i know) but she gets upset over the smallest things. Take today for example she was walking home and wanted me to walk with her but i couldnt because it was literally snowing and my mom FORCED me to ride the bus home. What is the logical thing to do? just be like 'oh, okay maybe next time'. NOPE not for Violet her reaction was to IGNORE me all day. I may be coming off a bit dramatic, but it honestly hurts someone you are close to the ONLY person you're close to ignores you because of something minor like not being able to walk with them. Some ppl might be like 'get a better friend' Hell no! my mind is fucked up and she is the only person who doesnt judge me for it cause she's just as fucked up.
thanks for reading,
Tall

I'm starting a new story that I just came up with literally like two minutes ago. I might be posting it on medibang so if you want to read it or think it might be interesting just keep your eyes open.

The story is about three friends. Ash a quiet girl who wants to be a leafblade, Max a happy guy who wants to be a flameheart, and Violet (her name might change) a loud and relatively angry girl who wishes to be (a position i have not yet thought of) If anyone thinks of a position and what they specialize in please comment down below and it will definitely be considered.

The two positions i have so far are:
Leafblades: Leafblades specialize in throwing knives, their knives are shaped sorta like (elliptic) leaves, hence the name.
Flamehearts: Flamehearts specialize in arson and other fire-related things