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It sucks growing up

I’ve been starting to realize what life actually is beyond high school peeping at it from a distance and now I’m discouraged. I don’t know how to be an adult! I don’t know how to be a functioning male in human society! I don’t want kids! I don’t want sex! I don’t want to do things and have responsibilities! I’ve been thinking about lethal injection after college.
Right after I tell my parents I’m an atheist at that point.
Because I don’t want any part of all that miserable shit in the world.
Should I do it? Just quit while I’m ahead when I legally can? I’m seriously thinking about doing it as my future plan. I first wanted to get neutered (because I’m not going to use that stuff in my life anyway), then wanted to surgically remove
the hair follicles out of my face so I don’t have facial hair tendency, then I wanted a smaller nose, then I shaved my hands to rid them of hair, and now I’m considering just not going far in general. It all seems way too hard.
What do you think? Should 18-20 be long enough of a lifespan?

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sneez.(Adrenalinemango)留言了!

It sucks growing up

I’ve been starting to realize what life actually is beyond high school peeping at it from a distance and now I’m discouraged. I don’t know how to be an adult! I don’t know how to be a functioning male in human society! I don’t want kids! I don’t want sex! I don’t want to do things and have responsibilities! I’ve been thinking about lethal injection after college.
Right after I tell my parents I’m an atheist at that point.
Because I don’t want any part of all that miserable shit in the world.
Should I do it? Just quit while I’m ahead when I legally can? I’m seriously thinking about doing it as my future plan. I first wanted to get neutered (because I’m not going to use that stuff in my life anyway), then wanted to surgically remove
the hair follicles out of my face so I don’t have facial hair tendency, then I wanted a smaller nose, then I shaved my hands to rid them of hair, and now I’m considering just not going far in general. It all seems way too hard.
What do you think? Should 18-20 be long enough of a lifespan?

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y'KNOW whAT??? ((read pls))

OK
SO
i've compromised with myself,,
i'll wait until it's closer to the end of school to leave, seeing as i still have over 2 weeks left. instead of vanishing so quickly, i'll stay for more than just 'a few days'. it seemed a little unfair :p
i might post random traditional sketches every so often, and rp, but that's all.
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unfortunately, i may still cancel making a digital ref of my open species. i'm still not very confident in my digital art. though,,if anyone wants to use the (low-quality) traditional ref i posted a few myspaces ago, feel free to :)
i'll likely stay until sometime during the week of May 20th. if i have to leave earlier, it's likely because i have to give up my school device.
sorry about that last post~

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weird af

so at my school we have a child development class ((i know bc one of my friends was taking/is currently taking it))
and o m f g
one of the girls in my math class has one of those fake robotic((?)) babies for what i'm assuming is a project for that class or somethin'
h o l y s h i z z
that thing started crying a few minutes ago, in class, and that may be one of the most inhuman things i've ever fvcking heard
if it does happens again for more than 10 seconds i may just tear it apart like a crazy person

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I have to be a homophobe

My church... I hate it...
The pastor’s family holds a game night every once in a while, and since I don’t get along with anyone at church, I’m always bored there. The men, sometimes, since they find me educated enough, tend to throw me into debate, which I hate but am not really allowed to say no to. They always say they are impressed, which is exactly why I dread going there. It’s pressure.
They said last night this time would be with LGBTQ. I have to put some effort into pretending to be a homophobe. I hate myself for it. But they put pressure on me, and if they figured out I myself loved another girl, I just don’t know... I’m scared... help

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sneez.(Adrenalinemango)留言了!

I have to be a homophobe

My church... I hate it...
The pastor’s family holds a game night every once in a while, and since I don’t get along with anyone at church, I’m always bored there. The men, sometimes, since they find me educated enough, tend to throw me into debate, which I hate but am not really allowed to say no to. They always say they are impressed, which is exactly why I dread going there. It’s pressure.
They said last night this time would be with LGBTQ. I have to put some effort into pretending to be a homophobe. I hate myself for it. But they put pressure on me, and if they figured out I myself loved another girl, I just don’t know... I’m scared... help

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