Recently I’ve been posting dumb stuff and usually I post things that are serious. I’m sorry if it’s getting on people’s nerves. I’m just super stressed thinking about how my parents will react when I tell them I’m an atheist,
They might hate me.
They might disown me.
I might break my sister’s heart.
And my youngest brother might grow up thinking I’m some kind of lunatic.
Only my other young brother Ethan knows. I love him so much, he still supports me for being myself.
But...
I just...
why did I have to be born in this situation?
I’m just so sick of hiding who I am. I’m so sick of being close to a full on adult and yet being so immature and scared and stupid and ugly and just plain... Jeff.
I don’t think I like Jeff.
He’s just like his father... a loser...
And nobody really wants to be with him. Romantically I mean.
I’m having a hard time moving on in my life. I’ve got about a month until I leave...
Happy freakin birthday, Jeff. You’re getting a whole lot of stress and anxiety.
I always feel so low down. So disgraceful. I mean, guys are supposed to be tough and cool and “I’m the hero” right?
But I’m a wuss, I cry a LOT, and I’m a loser wannabe weeb (who isn’t even allowed to WATCH anime) who can’t even defend himself, despite his “build”, or so I’ve been told I have.
Everyone at my high school just wanted to squeeze my man boobs and tell me how “gorgeous” I was, but I was always alone anyway.
...
Sorry, I’ll stop ranting.
I’m just... scared, sad, and lonely.
Just like I always am...