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vent warning pt 2
















dont read this, its dumb














































i just really though they would be a nice friend, ive been friends with them for 3 months
It took me a while and a lot of convincing from friends to even bring them in the friend group
Because im scared of making friends, cause every time i get friends they just fucking leave me! They haven't been sitting with us for almost all month. I was literally us crying last night because i was just so scared that i made they upset and i was the reason they were avoiding us. At lunch one of them goes and asks if where still friends and they laugh is his face and say no. This is why i shouldn't have friends im just going to lose they idk why i try. Ive just been so upset and angry and quite honestly im really freaking out because i really trusted them and now im scared that maybe i shouldn't be trusting my other friends because maybe their talking shit about me too
like idk what tf is going on anymore but im so fucking over everything in life. I should have fucking known
my trust issues are just getting so much worse all the time





I didnt really read back though any of this so sorry if theres any spelling mistake or whatever, i just wanted to get that off my chest and nobody else really cares. Not even sure anybody will read this.
but im okay with that