tw probably venting idk
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um so I have been having quite irregular sleep patterns (sometimes going to bed at 8:30, sometimes 10pm, waking up at 5am constantly), I've been a little irritated lately, haven't been wanting to draw that much/have been hating my art style, have been crying a lot over little dumb things/nothing at all
and I did a little bit of research
and it's kinda all pointing to depression
and I don't wanna say anything yet or self diagnose or anything like that
and I'm genuinely not in any trouble (I don't think) (like I'm not gonna kms or anything)
I just wanna know what everyone else here thinks since I cant really get a professional opinion/help atm?
like, what do I do with this information. I can't tell my parents because I'm pretty sure the source of it is something they'd get super mad at me for being involved in (no I'm not doing drugs or anything)
but just let me know what I should do. like am I supposed to text crisis hotline or something because again I can't get a therapist and I can't talk to my parents and if I talk to my friends it's gonna be weird because we never really talk about that kinda stuff?
anyways hope somebody reads this. thank you if you did