jeez it's so late and i dont want to have my shower =[ at least tomorrow is the weekend and i have nothing on that day






sigh i feel kind of insecure (i always have constant phases of it lol), i know that looks dont matter and it's all on who the person actually is, but like- i can't help but think "man i wish i was prettier" lol-
i've been exercising and stuff and ever since then i've never had insecure thoughts, but now they're getting to me again just the slightest bit lol. i just wish i was slimmer i guess. and maybe taller. it's funny because i used to hate how tall i was, but that's only because i started growing a LOT earlier than other girls, and now i want to be taller because people at work can tower over me- ik i'm talking about the 17-20 yearold (about that old??) men, but still lol i'm scared at how tall they are- but.. i feel like i'm not that insecure at the same time- sometimes i like my appearance and sometimes not idk ;w; my brain usually goes back and forth like that


anyway no one's probably going to read that rant lol why am i typing