I feel like I ruined zayden's life. I do not like this feeling. I don't like guilt. But I feel like my irrationality really ruined him. There's little things I've seen that hurt me because I know they're targeted, intentionally or unintentionally. The "Do people deserve second chances? No." For example. The name change. The sona change. The profile code being removed.

I don't like feeling this way.

I want it to stop. But he won't talk to me, no doubt.

Fuck.

I shouldn't have made such a stupid decision to break up with him.

I mean, yeah, I was really vulnerable, but.

I feel gross.

Guilty.