i tried a new medication to help my dizziness but it only made it worse, and i cant see. literally. i can see far away but up close i cant see anything. im scared tbh. one of the side effects was drowsiness (dizziness jesus) and blurred vision, which hopefully will go away soon.

i dont wanna wake up tomorrow. ive been feeling so horrible that i want to do it. but my mom has been caring for me so much lately, so i at least want to have the decency to tell her i wanna die. though i think shell be better off not knowing. but juuuust in case i decide to, ill let her know anyway. as for all of you, thanks. most of you helped me in rough times, by asking for collabs, or simply asking me how im doing.

i dont wanna go blind. everythings against me except my mom, so ill tell her tonight.