1. Now that 4H is over, my dear girl and I aren’t going to see each other until winter probably, and she’s going to forget about me, I know it. My best friend, the dearest person in my life, is going to forget about me. We’ve cuddled each other to sleep, we’ve danced together, and even almost died together, all well as more normal things, but she’ll forget it. She’ll forget me. I still love her more than myself, however, and perhaps this is for the best, seeing how ‘godly’ she is and how ‘sinful’ I am. I can’t tear myself away though... I just- how did I get so homoromantic? I’m disgusting, and I feel lesser than others because of how I feel about her.
We can’t even text because she feels that texting anyone drains her.
2. My mom meanwhile is demanding I give up my interests and hobbies, such as history, mythology, ART, and writing, because otherwise I’ll be a starving artist. So, I guess I’m finally giving up. Not like Medibang let’s me post stuff I actually want to post anymore. What I’ll do instead for hobbies, idk, but I’m at the line where it’s what I want or my safety, and my mom won’t compromise.