When I just broke down crying, in the middle of the night, when I watched about suicidal quotes and pictures.
I asked myself:
Why they deserve this, even they're good people?
Why the fuck it hurts so bad when I feel something hit to my heart, just like I always told myself until the day I die.
I WANT TO LIVE!
THE GOOD PEOPLE WANTS TO LIVE!
BUT IT HURTS ME SO BADLY WHEN IT TRIGGERS MY FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS.
I DON'T WANT TO DIE, EVEN MY THOUGHTS WANTED ME TO FUCKING BLOW MY HEAD OFF!
I don't care if you wanted me to shut up, or tell me to kill myself! I still protecting myself, even you until the day I perish!